I hope we meet in every universe.

slipped

I couldnt stop it. Seeing my dad drinking all the time now at my house made me slip. Practically running to the gas station to get that six pack of beer. Drinking it and downing all six in under an hour. I was helpless again. I cried afterwards because I broke my streak of not drinking again. Why couldnt I stop? While I texted Mel crying, lying to her that everything was fine, I wasnt fine though. My dad was downstairs drinking because of my mom, I started drinking because of everything going on, and what was going to happen to Mel or my friends? Were they going to get affected by it as well?

My vision was blurry by the time I got out my room. I almost fell down the stairs, but I didnt. "Donde vas?" I heard my dad tell me. "Huh?" I replied. He got up from the couch and grabbed my shoulder. "Where you go?" He repeated. "I dont know.." I whispered. He let go and grabbed another beer from the fridge. "Can you not? Apa youre gonna get bad again." I told him and grabbed the beer from him. "I know mija. I need it right now." He replied and grabbed another from the fridge. I sighed and just walked out the door. I couldnt right now. My head was throbbing and my vision sucked ass. Obviously I wasnt going to go with Mel. How would she react if she saw me like this? I started drinking the beer I took from my dad and felt once again relaxed. I hated beer. But why did it make me feel so good? Like all the problems in the world went away.

When I went outside I didnt even realize what I did. I just woke up in someones bed. What the fuck? I was laying down in Isa's bed and she walked in the room. "Youre finally awake. I dont care what you say, drink this water, and tell me what happened. Were you drinking?" Isa told me. I sat up and replied, "Um. Why am I in your room..?" Waking up in your friends room when you dont remember anything was obviously weird you know? "Are you kidding? I saw you passed out on the corner and Adrian had to help me drag you inside! I dont want you drinking anymore Lex!" She yelled and stood up. "..Im sorry." I whispered and drank the water. "I know you are. Because youre gonna tell Mel and actually get help. Either from Mel or us. We dont want you to get worse Lex okay?" Isa replied and she sighed. Anything I do, it affects everyone.

Either ways, for me to stop drinking after I get this bad, it isnt easy. Everyone thinks it is, but it isnt. "Just lay down for now Lex.." Isa whispered and walked outside. I heard her talking with someone and I thought it was Mel. But here comes Adrian barging inside. "Alexa you cant be doing that dude!" Adrian yelled and walked towards me. "Adrian stop!" Isa yelled and ran to him. "Youre lucky we found you like that! What if something happened to you!" He yelled and Isa started pulling his arm. "Im sorry." I whispered and sat up. "Fuck Alexa. I dont want you turning into like all my other stupid friends. Ya no haces eso wuey." He stated and sighed. "You sound like my dad right now." I replied. "Yea good. Maybe youll stop drinking now. I know its not easy." Adrian told me. Isa nodded at him and walked out the room. "My dad is drinking again. It wouldnt help you know." I whispered. "Oh. I didnt know. Either ways Alexa I know it aint easy, but you have to try. Trust I know the struggle, not personally, but ive seen my dad and friends struggle with it. I can help you, Isa can, youre girlfriend. You got people that can help you dude." He told me. A whole fucking lecture from multiple people. "I know. Thank you by the way. For carrying me inside and shit.." I responded. He nodded his head and left the room. Its not easy to accept reassurance from other people. Mel was enough for me.