I hope we meet in every universe.

youre everything and much more to me.

*Back to Lex's pov
It was a week from me and Mel's argument. But obviously she was the one in the right. I couldnt be mad at her or blame her for anything. She had the right to be mad at me. I should have knocked all those girls out when they were flirting with me. The bad thing is, I could never tell when they flirt. My flirt radar goes off around any other girl. Other than Mel of course. But I was angry at myself the most. For letting Mel feel that way about herself. The worse part too, is that we havent talked in two days. Havent seen each other in two days either. It was eating me alive. I needed to talk to her already and see her. She was all I needed. Im just super bad at talking about feelings and shit. And I wish I wasnt.

Adrian came the day of the argument to talk to me and it didnt go so well. Let me summarize everything up. He came over and talked to me about what happened. He lectured me but half the time I wasnt paying attention. Maybe it was the regret of not doing anything to protect Mel, maybe it was the corner store with that six pack of beer. But I couldnt. I know I shouldnt.
....
And I couldnt stop myself. Once Adrian left I bought it. I just drank one an hour until I wanted more. The temptation of drinking made me forget all about my worries and thoughts. Next thing you know, im drinking with some friends of Adrian's and lighting up a cigarette or two. I went to far. To deep that I was drowned in the comfort of bad decisions. Only to forget the one comfort that made me the best version of myself. The one comfort that I felt myself in. Mel. My girlfriend.
My girl that I made get hurt from my actions. So, there I was at 3 am infront of Mel's house. Screaming at her window to let me in and if we could talk. She didnt open up. But her neighbors made me leave home. Im okay now. That was two days ago. Im 100% sober, but I still am not ok from everything that happened.
I needed to talk to Mel, so I texted her to meet up at our park.

When I got to the park, my eyebags looked horrible. From.. crying and drinking. My breathe still had a smell of smoke since I bought a pack of cigarettes. There was no one to blame but me though. I just needed to apologize even if Mel didnt want to talk. "Hi." Mel whispered as she walked up to me. "Hi." I replied. She nodded and sat down. "Howve you been?" She asked. I told her I was alright and asked the same. "Not good." She replied. So I just went for it. To take aeay some awkwardness from my own girlfriend. "Im sorry. Thats what I needed to say. That I was so blind about everything. You deserve someone who doesnt treat you like that." I tell her. "W-what..?" Her voice cracks. "Are you breaking up with me-?" She said again and covered her mouth. "No of course not. Im just saying I could have done better to make you happier. Not make you feel unwanted." I answered. But I didnt look at her at all. She started sniffing and looked the other way. "Maybe a few days apart wouldnt be to bad.." Mel whispered. What? Did I fuck up that bad? Beforr saying anything I just paused. Feeling my eyes get tired more. "If. If thats what you want.." I whispered and got up. "Im sor-", Before she got to say anything I cut her off, "Just text me or anything when youre ready. Or if this wont work out." Then I left.

What the hell?? What was that!? I wanted to make up not separate for a while. This was all my fucking fault. I shouldnt have moved schools.
I should have just kept my feelings to myself. I never fit in a relationship I just ruin people. I hated myself for this. I hated that I made her feel like shit. Mel deserves better than me.

It was now Monday. And instead of walking to Mel's house or going to the library with her, I stayed in bed. "Mija youre not going to school?" My dad asked. "No. I dont feel good apa.." I replied and he told me to get up, and go to school. Even if I did listen or not, he would drag me there. So I got dressed and left for school. By myself instead of with Mel. When I got to school, I went to go with Adrian instead. "Hey lex why arent you with Mel?" He asked. "We um.. we are taking time apart from each other." I whispered and laid my head down. He told me that he thought it was a resolved argument and we were normal again. But we werent. I mean, what even is normal too? What makes something or someone normal? It didnt make sense. Maybe this split from me and Mel was something healthy?... "Just leave it Adrian. I know you wanna help but im too tired." I told him. He grabbed my backpack and opened it. "Yea tired from what!" He whispered loudly. "Bruh give it back!!" I yelled and took my backpack. Isa walked inside the room and saw us arguing. "Hey whats going on!" She yelled and ran to our table. Adrian showed her my cigarette pack and Isa looked at me disappointed. "Lex.. why are you doing this? The drinking was enough but now this?" Isa told me and grabbed the pack, hoping no one would see. "Your going to stop doing this shit. I know this is hard for you but this aint good." Adrian told me and got up, taking my backpack outside. I followed him and he started searching through my backpack. "Fool stop it for real!" I yelled and tried to grab my backpack.

"What the fuck Alexa. Why you got so much mini tequila bottles in here?" He asked.
..
"Um. I dont know." I whispered.
He grabbed all of them and put them in his backpack. Telling me that I wouldn't waste my life drinking and smoking. But it just helped soothe what was happening. "Why the hell did you do that? Give me them back!" I screamed and grabbed his backpack. "Hey calm down! Its for the best Lex please!" Isa yelled at me and grabbed Adrian backpack. Did I look crazy? Pf course. Was there people staring? No. But Mel was. She was next to Isa and saw me. I was to tired and caught up with what was happening, I was so focused on grabbing my stuff. "Lex.. Are you drinking again?" Mel asked and I shook my head no. I grabbed my backpack and left to class.

We were making copies for Miss. Turner, and the whole time I was ignoring Mel. I couldn't stare at her or talk to her at all without feeling like I messed up our relationship. I never thought this would happen to us. We were so happy.. "Hey im talking to you? We need to talk. I dont like how youre turning." Mel whispered and waved her hand infront of my face. "Oh. Um I guess." I replied and she dragged me by the arm outside.
"Youre like this because of me right?" She asked and crossed her arms. "What, no." I replied. She knew I was lying. Of course she knew. "Look Lex. I dont want to fight anymore or argue because it wasnt your fault or my fault. I was just tired of girls hitting on you constantly and I took it out on you. Its not your fault they keep doing that, even when you tell them to stop." She said quickly and wiped her eyes. "I never wanted to argue either. It just happened." I answered.
She looked up at me and gave me a hug. Then I heard her crying quietly as I hugged her back.
"Im sorry for everything." I whispered.
She tried to make words come out of her mouth but I could tell she was struggling.
"Dont cry Mel." I told her. She started crying even more and hugged me tighter. "We are never going to split up ever again.. That was harder than anything." Mel told me as she slowly stopped crying. "I know baby. I promise to never make you feel like that again." I said and gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. Im just glad everything is better now.
It was just the drinking and my smoking problems now. Mel made me throw everything away and she made me sleep over at her house to "watch me". I was glad someone actually cared that much about me. And I cared about her so much. Ive never met a girl like Mel. Ive never put so much thought and care in a relationship before. She means so much to me. I love her so much.