Can't let go (Zanemau fanfic)

Chapter II

Aphmau and Zane were hanging out at Zane's house, playing with horsies. Aphmau decided that she needed to confront Zane. She caught on that something is bothering Zane, and for a while now.

Aphmau: "Okay Zane. What's going on?"

Zane: Irene, is it that obvious? Or is she just too good at reading me? 

"What are you talking about? Nothing is going on."

Aphmau: "Zane, quit being a baby, I know something is bothering you. I can see that look in your eyes, and it's been going on for a few days now. Tell me, are you okay? Do you still not like the idea of Aaron being together with me? Because I can assure you, nothing can break our friendship-"

Zane: Just tell her yes! Just tell her!!! 

"NO Aphmau. I told you and I told Aaron that I'm fine with it, as long as he doesn't break your heart." 

Because I want you to be happy. And I can't promise that if you were involved with me.

Aphmau: "Then what is it? I'm not gonna back down until you tell me!"

Zane: Of course you won't. I know that way too well.

"F-fine. Well... there's... this girl I- like."

Aphmau: "OH MY IRENE is it Kawaii-chan?!!"

Zane: "WHAT- NO!"

Aphmau: "It better not be Michi-"

Zane: "No! Aphmau!

...

Y-you don't know her, I met her at work. But... I uh... Don't know how to talk to her. And... anything after that is very weird to me. Even thinking about d-dating makes my head spin and question if I... like like her."

Aphmau: "Do you actually like like her? Maybe it's just a little crush?"

Zane: "I'm not sure, I wasn't aware before that I could feel romantic attraction at all. But..."

He looks at Aphmau, trying not to actually stare at her but through her to give her a fake impression of who Zane was really thinking of.

Zane: "There is certanly something there. I'm just not sure what it is or if I want to know."

Aphmau: "Well, maybe I can help you? I could meet her and befriend her! What does she look like?"

Zane: "No Aph I-

...

I want to do this... myself."

Aphmau: "Awww my little Zuzu is growing up!"

Zane: "Shut up! I'm done talking to you!" He turns away to face the wall.

Aphmau: "Well Zane, if you want, I can still try to give you advice. But honestly... I'm so proud of you. That you are working on building relationships. DOESN'T matter if they are an acquaintance or a friend or anything else."

Zane: "Thanks Aph."

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Later at Aaron's house.

Aphmau: "I don't think he is telling me the truth, or at least not the whole truth! I felt something real behind those words but I have no idea which ones, and I really want to know, but I don't want to push it and make him feel like I don't trust him!"

Aaron: "Well, you kinda aren't trusting him. I think you should watch this play out and gather more info. But don't go against his wishes, because you would definitely put yourself in a bad spot with that. Maybe that person doesn't even exist and he just wants you to feel proud for him."

Aphmau: "But I am proud of him! Always am. Well, almost always." *sigh*

"Aaron, you're right. I need to be calm and patient, and trust him. Just a little bit of doubt isn't going to break hearts."

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Zane's house, 3 am at night.

Zane was known to have sleeping issues, sometimes getting no sleep at all in some nights. This was one of them, but this time, it bothered Zane.

Zane: How am I going to get myself out of this situation?

Maybe Aph knows that I need atleast some kind of a bond to feel something for this person. And she is already baking a plan to get to the bottom of this.

Or. She doesn't or doesn't realize it. 

Irene this is frustrating. I need something to get my mind off of this.

Zane gets up from his bed and walks over to his desk. His laptop's battery is dead, but he is too lazy to look for the charger. He instead starts to look for a paper and a pen. He finds an old college notebook he had forgotten, and when fliping trough the pages, he finds an entry, that looks like a diary entry.

-----Text in the book-----

October 13

Despite my previous poems and other writing pieces, I have avoided mentioning people. Partly because they are stupid and boring, but partly because I don't associate myself with anyone. And of course, if someone finds any of my stuff no one can point fingers and laugh. 

Today, I felt different.

I don't use that name lightly, because I don't like her. She is very annoying and always talks back to me and never leaves me alone if our paths cross. Overall, I'd love to stay away from her as far as I can for the rest of my life. I'm sure she feels the same.

She was... different today. Nothing about her had changed, not the attitude, appearance or anything at all. I had the pleasure of not talking to her, only saw her from my dorm window. 

I don't even know how it happened. And then there was that spark. 

It's like our eyes met. I'm pretty sure she didn't see me, but the feeling was the same. It wasn't a look of annoyance or anger, just surprised. Her caramel eyes shined a bit in the sun.

My heart started beating faster, and I broke the imaginary eye-contact. It felt like magic. Something I had never felt before, sparked in me. And just like that, it was gone again. It felt good. It didn't make me like her more or atleast have neutral feelings for her, she was still annoying, but, I couldn't let go of that little connection we had.

Aphmau. I hate this, but, this is for you.

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Zane quickly closed the book. He could feel the warmth on his cheeks. He remembered that day. It was one of very few where for a moment, he thought that he and Aphmau could be more than sworn-enemies, but cringed and went back to ignoring her existence.

Zane smiled to the thought of how far they've come. But he still didn't want to read the poem he had made so long ago. And the inspiration to write a new one had disappeared as well. He but the book back in it's place and headed back to bed. Zane was still awake for an hour after that, fell asleep like nothing had ever bothered him.

End of chapter II

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Thank you for reading! I hope I can keep up the writing pace I have had until now.

I'm still sure how to switch the POVs, so it might be hard to undestand (sorry), but I will figure it out, I promise. Any suggestions storywise are welcome, maybe it will spice up the plot more even. Who knows :).