I Traveled To Another World?! (Kozume Kenma)

CHAPTER 41

KENMA'S POV

That night when Yanna didn't want to eat with us, I came back to tell her that I'll just wait for her. But I saw her playing volleyball with Sakusa. I watched how she laugh when the ball fall into his head, I watched them until the end. And when I saw them picking up the balls they used, I rushed back to the caferteria. I get some food and pretended to be eating. They arrived holding each other hands. I felt a little pain in my heart but I tried to understand her situation. I'm not really mad at her when I walked out of there. Instead I went to their room and was planning to leave a note for her to remind her to eat and sleep early, but then I saw something in her bag that is left open. There's a book full of pictures of her journey since she arrived here. I was shock on what I saw on the last page.

I immediately put it back on her bag and went out of there. Then I went to our room to think about it. I'm shaking in fear of losing her. It took me a few minutes to process all the possible way to deal with her situation. I looked out of the window and saw her sitting on the grass while looking up. It looks like she already saw the letter. Even in the distance, I can saw her sad face and I can feel it too.

I get one of my hoodie to give her and went down to meet her. But there's someone sitting with her already. It's Sakusa again. I didn't feel jealous to be honest. I just watched them while thinking what I can do for her.

I don't want to hold her back for leaving and saw her vanish slowly. I need to let her go. If I stay with her, it will be hard for me to do that. I won't be able to stop myself for asking her not to leave me which I think will hurt her even more if she will see me like that.

I saw them stood up and I went to get her but Sakusa hug her and tell her the he like her. Then an idea popped out my mind. I pretended to be mad at her and left without hearing her explanation. And that something she wants to talk with, I know it's about her remaining time here.

"I'm sorry my pudding, but I need you to hate me. I can bear all the pain when you leave but thinking of you crying because of me, I can't bear that. When you get back to your world, I want to you be happy and forget about me."

The next day, I ignored her all the time she will attemp to talk to me. I noticed that she look sick and was about to confront her but I stopped myself. Even if I'm really woried about her, I need to show her that I didn't care anymore.

'Please hate me Yanna.'

She went out and we saw her sleeping under the three. I almost laugh because I saw her eyes opened a little. She's pretending to be asleep. Before I do something stupid, I walked away and went back on the gym. She's so beautiful and cute right there that I'm afraid I will sit beside her and give her a tight hug and kisses.

When she get back, I was about to run after the ball that flying to her when someone catch it. He put his hand on her forehead like he's measuring her temperature. So she's really sick?

I turned my back on them before she notice my worried face looking at her. I don't know how much time left for Yanna to be here but I think anytime from now, she can leave whenever she wants. So I made a very big decission. I run after them when they leave the gym. It hurts me to see her with him but I need to do this for her.

I gave her the key to my house and ask her to leave. If I do that, I'm sure you will hate me. Then you can leave without thinking of hurting me.

I watched them leaving the school, Sakusa carrying her things.

"Goodbye Yanna. I love you so much." I said while she' slowly vanishing from my sight. I felt my tears slowly flowing down my cheeks because I know that this would be the last time I will see her.