Oneshots x M! Reader //BSD

•Dazai -Chuuya•

Y/n is their child cuz yea 👍 and sorry I made Atsushi a bit dumb lol. (Ft Chibi Dazai drawing.)

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Dazai was in his apartment, in his kitchen, cleaning up a little.

While Atsushi was occupying Dazai's baby son, Y/n. Trying to feed the baby some fried chicken. Even though Y/n is too young for solid food yet.

Dazai glances over at Atsushi. His eyes are gleaming with pride, seeing the little one so content on Atsushi's arms.

Then he sees Atsushi attempting to feed Y/n some fried chicken. "What are you doing?! That's a choking hazard!" He said.

Atsushi flinches. And looks up at Dazai. Lowering the chicken. was trying to feed him. I don't know how to feed your son. You didn't tell me how..." He said with a shrug.

Dazai puts his rag down and approaches Atsushi, but not in a threatening way, merely to guide Atsushi in the right direction.

He takes the chicken out of Atsushi's hands gently, and sets it aside. He kneels down and opens the bottle of formula. "That is not the way to feed a child at his age." He looks up at Atsushi again. "You should have asked..." he feeds the formula to Y/n as he talks.

Atsushi huffs. Still having Y/n cradled in his arms while Dazai feed him. "yea... I guess this is practice for if me and Akutagawa ever have a child." He said with a shrug.

Dazai chuckles quietly when he hears Atsushi mention having a child with Akutagawa. As he feeds Y/n his formula, he thinks for a second before speaking. "I don't see why you two couldn't have a kid. It would be... interesting, to see how Akutagawa would act as a father figure." He finishes feeding Y/n.

"Yea... at least you seem to be handling Y/n well ever since Chu.-" Atsushi started. But stops. Knowing he shouldn't bring up Chuuya.

So he decides to reword his sentence. He clears his throat. "I mean you seem to be handling the father life well..." he sheepishly said. While putting Y/n into Dazais arms.

Dazai looks over at Atsushi once again. His face is unnaturally solemn, and a look of sadness crosses his face when he hears Atsushi mention Chuuya's name.

He sets the bottle aside and stands up with Y/n in his arms. "Yes... I am handling fatherhood well, despite the circumstances. Chuuya did want a child, I am glad he got that wish before..." he stops himself from continuing, and instead looks away for a moment. "I miss him..."

Atsushi sighs and nods. Silent for a bit. He then stands up as well. "I should get headed home. Akutagawa will be waiting for me... I'm glad I could meet Y/n. Take well, Dazai. I'll see you tomorrow." Atsushi said. Giving Dazai a small pat on the shoulder. And then leaving Dazais apartment.

Dazai watches Atsushi go, and sighs heavily after he leaves. He sets Y/n in his baby carrier. He sits down next to it, where Y/n is fast asleep now. Dazai gazes down at his son with a mix of pride and a strange sadness.

He reaches his hand out and places it on Y/n's head, his thumb brushing over the tiny newborn's head.

He sighs again, thinking back on his husband's death.

Later on Dazai places Y/n in the crib, and closes the doors slowly, making sure not to make a sound and end up waking the sleeping baby. He sits down on the couch, looking tired, his eyes are red, and his hands are trembling slightly.

He exhales, and buries his head in his sleeve, holding himself together. He stays silent for a little while but eventually stands up, and heads to his room.

He gets inside his room and closes the door behind him. He collapses onto the bed with a loud thud. The bed creaks beneath his weight, and Dazai just stares at the ceiling blankly.

His eyes grow tired, and he rests his face in his hands.

His breathing is strained and ragged, and he is on the verge of tears.

He looks at the closed door to his room, and starts to silently sob.