Mafia Prisoner: Book 1

Ch. 56 - Not My Life

Vivian POV

Niko just walked out like nothing happened. Why did I completely melt to him like that? He caught me off guard and I caved to him. The entire time I showered I thought of him and even considered pleasuring myself.

Now I was thoroughly satisfied by the real monster and unsure how to feel about it. There was no denying I wanted to feel his hard body take mine as his again, but emotionally I couldn't handle it. I wasn't a weak woman that allowed a man to hurt me the many ways he did, then just give into him.

I gathered myself then washed quickly and headed to bed. My body felt like blissful jelly and my mind was complete mush. I could internally smack myself tomorrow for letting him make me feel this good.

The next morning Niko was grinning at breakfast. He told Vanessa to handle the business affairs for the next few days because he had more important matters to deal with. I didn't know what he meant by that, but I did hate that he relied on her so much. She was a clear reminder why I shouldn't allow him to touch me.

He fucked her then brought her home with him. They spent every day together either away at his office or here in his home. I knew he had more than just that one time with her and it made me sick. How could he fuck her then demand me to give him my body?

"Why are you pissed?" he asked as we were almost done eating.

"I'm fine." I shot back, not wanting to talk. I was hurt and I hated that he could have that effect on me.

"You're not fine. I told you to behave and I would allow you more freedom."

"How am I not behaving? You didn't seem to have an issue last night." I spit those words out regretting them the second they left my mouth. I was jealous of Vanessa and I wanted her to know he wanted me more. I was pathetic.

"Viv, I asked what's wrong? Are you mad I came to you, or that you enjoyed it?" His voice was soft at first then he became the cocky asshole I knew him to be.

"Fuck you!" I shouted then headed to my room. I can't deal with him right now.

I slammed my bathroom door crying uncontrollably. My hands gripped the sink, trying to find my peace. I wanted to just let it all go but I was becoming overwhelmed with my thoughts. How he felt inside me to how his harsh words ripped my insides apart. It wasn't fair that he treated me this way, yet I wanted him.

I took a few deep breaths trying to calm my nerves then a wave of nausea hit me. I ran to the toilet, emptying everything in my stomach and then some more. I never threw up so violently before. I scolded myself for being such a mess. This is what he did to me. He threw my body into a mess of emotions then beat out all of my worth until I felt like I was nothing.

I sat there a long while thinking about everything that happened these past few months. How did this become my life? Why did everything get taken from me?

I cleaned my face and brushed my teeth then headed back out to my prison. I needed to accept this and wait patiently for my opportunity. I have Amy now too. It was going to be even harder to get away taking her with me but I couldn't leave her behind. Even if Niko wanted to protect her, he was too stupid to see how his men glared at her like the enemy or how the kids avoided her like the plague.

Amy was on the bed waiting for me and I gave her a small smile. "Sorry I took so long. Want to watch a movie?" I asked her

"Sure." She shrugged her shoulders climbing off the bed.

We spent the rest of the day watching one too many animated movies that she sang along to everyone. When dinner came around Niko was thankfully gone. I couldn't handle him until I got my emotions under control. Amy ate her full plate making me smile, but I only took a few bites. I wasn't hungry for anything in life anymore.