Renee Rapp x Fem Reader One shots

I've got you(pt 2)

A/N(im sorry?)

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The next morning we both get woken up by a knock on the door from the teacher telling us it was time to get up. After fully waking up I realize there is heavy weight on my body. I look down and I see...Renee?. what happened last night. Oh right. We should probably talk about that.

"Renee "I whisper softly" Nae its time to get up". Renee groans in response as she buries her face in my neck. "What happened yesterday why am I on the bed?... Correction why am I on top of you?" Renee questions.

"You had a nightmare and you insisted on staying with me cause you just love me so much."."you wish I loved you"She responded as all memories came back to her.

I let out a chuckle. She's right. I do wish that she loves me im not even going to deny it anymore I do love and care for her. Alot, like a lot its fucking unbearable at this point. i can't keep denying it anymore again and again and again. Every time I do its painful and gosh did I mention that its unbearable. I cant keep quiet for ever.

I feel Renee getting up and I cant stay quiet I cant I should say something. I mean she already hates me so I should just tell her so she could reject me and I could move on.

I grab Renee's Wrist and pull her back on the bed."Hey could I talk to you about something?"I Asked."Umm sure I guess.".

"I gosh I don't know how to explain or say this. "I tell her. "Just say it"Renee tells me with a hint of worry.

I look down"I like you Renee like a lot and I cant keep denying my feelings it hurt how much I like you and im just telling you now so you could reject me and I could move on-"

I feel her crashing her into mine for a kiss. OH my GOSH Renee is kissing me holy gosh.

I pulled away before it could get heated and I hear Renee tell me."y/n its ok Baby I like you to and honestly I don't even know why I hate you.But I really never did its just that I thought you did so maybe that's why."Renee told me letting out an relieved sigh.

"I always pretended to hate you because I though you hated me."I Explained.

"Well."She pecks my lips before continuing. "I don't hate you not even one bit."Renee continued.

"But Im still not fully forgiving you for how you where treating me."She added before getting up and going to the bathroom to get ready.

I felt my heart rip to pieces. It felt like my heart was getting stabbed by a person that I loved. It hurts It hurts so much I know I treated her bad but I didn't think that id lose her.Well I guess I have to move on.Ugh what is wrong with me.

After more thinking I hear the bathroom door open again snapping me out of my thoughts before I wiped my tears that I didn't realize fell.Well I mean my eye are like a river after all they hold water with all there might but when it reaches its limit it overflows.

"y/n whats wrong Baby"I hear Renee tell me while rushing to my side."Im sorry im so sorry Renee so sorry for how I treated you I cant lose you I thought I would be able to get over you and I know its only been like 10 minutes but I probably wouldnt be able to get over you."She just looked at me I repeat she just fucking looked at me."Renee please say something."I choked out I could barley talk I was crying to much.

She still didn't say anything she only got on the bed pull me on her lap wrapping one arm around my waist and she rested the other one on my head and neck."Im only gonna talk if you calm down alright."She said. "Deep breathes Baby."She whispered in my ears.

About five minutes later I had calmed down."You ok now? "she asked me."Sure.".

"Ok um look y/n alright before i say anything please don't get me wrong when i say i absolutely i adore you but we cant be together right now.".

"Why not?"

"Because i want you to genuinely to love yourself before i can love you. I don't want to be the reason that you have self love, because then what happens if we break up of something? you're going to go right back to square one. I dont want to pick you up from the dark place you in and then put you right back.And if you do its going to hurt me so much knowing that one of the reasons your mental health isn't good is because of me."She told me and she was right.

"And same for me"She stops for a second." im not one hundred percent okay with myself, and in order for me to love you to the fullest extent i need to love me to the fullest extent. We can still be friends and we can help each other."

"Okay then its okay your right I do need to work on myself. "I tell her devastated.

"y/n I really do lo-"She was cut of by the sound of the door being knocked. "Girls we leave soon meet us in the lobby in 10."We hear the teacher say.

"Alright then. She taps me on back as a signal to get up.

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A/N(I'm not sorry.)