°• Book 1 in the unexpected marriage series •°
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"They tried to hide their feelings with silence but they forgot that their eyes spoke too..."
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"I'm a mess at times, and there are days when I am a lot to handle", she cried...
*Lasya entering the lover girl era as well as living in denial*🤷🏻♀️
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L A S Y A
An unsettling feeling rose in my throat while we travelled back in complete silence. Moksh's apology has left me in splits, I know he was guilty but the emotions and depth in his confession weren't something I was expecting, especially when my thoughts were haywire.
Taking a deep breath, I gazed out of the window lost in my thoughts. I didn't reply to Moksh's apology, I had stood completely clueless in front of him. Like I fool I'd just stared at him while he expected an answer.
I have a defect in myself, whenever it comes to expressing emotions, my brain just shuts down completely and my body goes all rigid, refusing to act accordingly.
I had grown so habitual of living an emotionless life that I wasn't able to experience emotions or feel empathy towards others, my friends and loved ones had worked hard to transform me from a broken cold-hearted bitch to a soul who would at least reply and show some sympathy.
But when it comes to Moksh, I don't know why but I'm not able to think rationally. Whenever he initiates something, my haunting memories force me back and remind me of all the things that went wrong in the past. When he takes a step ahead, I find myself taking two steps back.
I was afraid, afraid of everything, afraid that if I got myself attached to Moksh, he would be gone from my life. Whoever I loved deeply has been snatched away from me. Since then I have made sure not to rely on anyone, or get attached to them.
I made sure to keep a certain amount of gap between everyone I thought was mine, I was too scared of losing them. Whenever someone got close to me, fear would always grip my heart of losing them forever.
Maa, Papa, Raina, Nani, Ish, friends,family everyone left me and went away from my life to never come back again. And this time I didn't want to let the new family I had gotten, my safe place vanish from my life.
Even if it meant distancing away from them, from Moksh, from everywhere. I didn't want to be broken again, left alone in the middle of a dark tunnel, cry myself to sleep every night, several pain attacks, I didn't want it all, all over again. I was scared of the darkness, of being alone and lonely.
A stray tear escaped my eye and I quickly wiped it before Moksh could notice. After his sorry speech, he didn't force me or ask for an explanation.
He had simply smiled at me most appealingly and squeezed my cold palms with an assurance.
