My Roommate is my Type? (Catradora Modern AU, SMUT heavy)

Chapter 10 : An experts opinion

Adoras POV:

When Catra was out the door, I had expected to be freaking out but instead, a strange calm came over me "I..may be gay...or bi..romantic..yeah I need to google some shit"

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Hours of asking the internet to answer my questions were all for naught when I realized that I still haven't gotten an answer to the main one "how I could know if I was gay?". As I get back to my laptop, a thought occurred to me "Maybe...I ask someone else who could know" I walk past the PC and pick up my Phone

"Yeah?"

"Hey Bow..could I swing by for a bit?...I think i need help"

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Glimmer's boyfriend had an apartment on the other side of town, close to the Library his Dads managed. Bow and I weren't that close but when he came out as Bi, Glimmer and I were the first ones he told...after his dads, of course and, while I never really understood why they all made such a big deal about it, I felt good to know that he trusted me this much.

The young Man opened the door after a few seconds, wearing a black and white ensemble that left his Stomach free for whatever reason and greeting me with his radiant, friendly smile, hugging me before I could even get a word out "Adora. Are you okay? What happened?"

"Hey Bow...umm could I come in?"

"Oh, yeah sure sure" he stepped aside, not wasting a second to offer me Water, Tea or Coffee and apologizing for not having anything else. After we sat down, I could see that Glimmer must've been at home "So..what happened?"

"This..is going to take a while"

"I got time" he smiled while making himself comfortable

I go over everything, leaving nothing out but skipping the more...intimate details. He listened and didn't interrupt, waiting patiently until I reached the point in the story where I called him

"So...to recap. You met someone, slept with her drunk, moved out of Glimmers and in with your one night fling. Not only didn't you explain anything to my Girlfriend but you done so after throwing your BF out and then you had sex with her again, whereby she taught you what an orgasm is and now she is your roommate and constantly flirting with you"

"Y..yeah..that about sums it up"

He hit his forehead with his open palm....hard "Adora...have you been dropped as a Baby? Are you Brain damaged? Because this is literally the dumbest story I've ever heard"

"I know" I felt stupid for not understanding my own body "That's why I'm here...how do I know that what I'm feeling is real? Or is this just another stupid misunderstanding that I never even considered or maybe there is something else that I failed at and.."

"STOP" he shouts with his hand up "You need to breathe. Take it one step at a time, Adora" I took a few deep breaths and he sat beside me, his hand rubbing my back "How do you feel about it all? What do you think?"

"I..I don't know, Bow. I'm starting to think that Catra might be right about me and..im scared" I could feel my own heartbeat in my chest

"About being Gay? I know that it's scary to discover yourself so late in life and coming out is ..terrifying but.."

"I'm scared how my mom is gonna react" I blurt out without thinking and Bow changed his look from comforting to worried

"Is that your first thought? You Mom? Adora, she has nothing to do with your life even if she's part of it. If you think you may be Gay that's nothing you need to feel ashamed about and you don't owe anyone an explanation or justification for feeling this way. We are born this way...neither you, nor anyone else, can change that"

"I can't even think about any of this because.. it feels as if the walls are coming closer and closer, as if I can't even see myself anymore" I stand up, feeling as if the room had no more air left in it for me suddenly "How am I supposed to know? How am I supposed to be?...who am I?" I sat myself in the corner Bow had left free after he removed the scratching post of his pet Cat "Why am I the only one who struggles with this?"

Bow kneeled in front of me "You're not. There are hundreds of thousands of People out there who struggle to accept themself for all sorts of reasons. You are just a bit...late but that's not so bad, right?" He stood up and poured some of the Tea he had brewed "Sit, calm down and drink some tea"

We talked about how he felt when he told Glimmer, how his parents reacted (predictably, happy) and how his own friends took the news. Suddenly, he took a solemn look "...you know what's the worst feeling, when you tell someone you're Bi?"

"No?"

"When they see it as just straight with extra steps. One of my aunts told me, to my face "Oh, so you still can get married to a Girl and have a Family, yes?" like this huge step for me was...irrelevant. I had tons of questions I failed to answer when I realized that my feelings for Glimmer went beyond friendship. Was I really just straight and fooling myself? Was I scared of being with a guy and ran into the safe choice? Where those feeling real or what society told me I was supposed to feel?"

"And? Did you find an answer?" I ask, feeling the warmth of the hot tea in my hands

"..no...I just felt that, after all the questions, I was okay with who I was and I like who I like....that's all"

I noticed that it was already late evening and Catra must've been home already so I left Bow's apartment. He had promised his dads he would help out at work anyway so the timing wasn't awkward. My little freakout felt like 30 minutes but I had spend 3 hours there without even realizing it. I had hoped to return with some questions answered and had instead picked up more but felt a bit calmer in knowing that i wasn't the only one who felt this way

My Key finds its correspondence piece and I open the door to see Catra standing in the living room, wearing a black, off the shoulder Sweater with a small chest window and short jeans "Holly...shit" I catch myself thinking before I close the door. She was currently on her phone

"Hmm got you...who is?....uff hmkay, not the worst I guess..." she noticed me with a small wave and a smile "...so she's gonna be there?..sweet, see you in an hour, Lon" she hung up and turned to me "Hey, Adora" she said, striking a pose "How do i look?"

"Umm...okay, I guess?" I mutter, unable to voice my actual thoughts and her face tells me that that was the wrong thing to say "..good, okay, you look good"

"Glad you share my opinion. Get dressed"

"Wha...why?"

"Because we are going on a date" she smirked, her arms entangled around mine

A/N

Filler-ish, you know the drill by now ^^ Have a nice Day