My Temptation

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J A N E

I've been tossing and turning since midnight and it's currently 3 am. I haven't been able to sleep all night long, all I've been thinking about is what happened with Miles. What happened to him is so heartbreaking but why would he say that he can trust me if he's still not going to give in? He's leaving for heaven's sake! Well one thing is for sure, I am not going to let him leave just like that.

I throw the covers off my body and get up from my bed slipping on some fuzzy slippers. I quietly leave my room and go downstairs to the kitchen. It's so quiet and dark right now, the only light I see is the moonlight shining through the front door glass.

I turn the lights to the kitchen on then open the fridge looking through it for some snacks. I grab the package of blueberries and strawberries then rinse them off with some water and start eating them.

My mind is racing with a million different thoughts and I don't know what to do about Miles. I mean, am I just being unreasonable? I feel like I'm being selfish but also I feel like I have every right to feel this way. I like him and he clearly likes me, he knows that I won't snitch or tell anyone so what's the problem?

There's only one way to clear my mind and calm my emotions down - alcohol. I bend down and open the cabinet under the island that's full with different bottles of liquor. I grab a bottle of Vodka then I put some of my blueberries and strawberries in a bowl and take everything outside to the backyard.

I sit on a pool chair and put my feet up on the table, twisting off the bottle cap and flicking it off then taking a big gulp. The taste makes me gag slightly and I feel my throat burn. As I continue drinking and munching on my berries I listen to the sounds outside, it's 3 am so I hardly hear any cars on the road so all I hear is the crickets chirping.

After a short while I start feeling more relaxed than before and I'm definitely starting to feel this alcohol. I look up at the sky and watch the stars glistening when I suddenly hear the backyard door slide open pulling me out of my thoughts.

"Jane?" I hear Miles says in a hushed tone

"That's me and this isn't a library Miles, you don't have to be so damn quiet." I say scoffing and taking another big sip

"It's 3 in the morning and people are usually asleep during this time so I'm not going to be loud. And speaking of, why are you not asleep?" He asks walking up next to me and staring down at me causing me to look up at him.

"Couldn't sleep so I came down for a drink and snacks. Want some berries?" I say slightly slurring my words as I hold the bowl up to him but he gently pushes it away shaking his head.

"Your choice of drink is Vodka? Why are you drinking this early in the morning ?" He says trying to take the bottle away from me but I smack his hand away and drink more from it.

He sighs deeply and sits on the pool chair that's directly across from me. He leans over putting his elbows on his knees and interlocking his fingers together. He stares at me deeply but I don't dare to look at him

"Jane, look at me." He says and I shake my head throwing another blueberry in my mouth then drinking more but he grabs the bottle from me and yanks it away causing some to spill on my chin.

"Miles what the hell!" I say annoyed wiping off my chin with the back of my hand

"Stop acting like this Jane." He says and I roll my eyes

"Why do you care how I act? You're leaving anyway so maybe you should stopping worrying about what I'm doing from now." I say

"I don't want to leave but I can't stay here. You're my temptation and I can't have a temptation ." He says