My Temptation

6

M I L E S

I take off my clothes from tonight and toss them on the edge of my bed then slip into a pair of sweat pants. I lay on my bed and stare up at the ceiling, all the events that happened tonight race through my mind. I couldn't keep my eyes off of Jane tonight, not only because I wanted to make sure she was safe but also because I couldn't stop staring at her in that little tight dress.

Watching her dancing around in that dress drove me wild but seeing her dance with that piece of shit drove me absolutely crazy. If she didn't stop me when she did, then I don't know if I could've stopped myself from killing him. The rage I felt when I saw her trying to escape from him but he wasn't letting her go, that rage was unbearable.

But I do have to admit, the only good thing that came from tonight was that we really talked and she finally forgave me. I feel so much more at peace now knowing that she doesn't hate me anymore. Now we can be civil towards each other, maybe we can even start a friendship, Lord knows I want more but I can't.

I have to suppress my feelings for her, I shouldn't be attracted to her the way I am. I have been doing this for years and there have been plenty of woman who were beautiful but I never felt any attraction or feelings towards them.. but the moment I laid my eyes on Jane, it's like I knew it was over for me. The company I work does not allow any sort of romantic feelings or relationships between us bodyguards and anyone in the family that we are working for. 

It's forbidden but Jane is having me want to risk everything. But I need to be stronger than these feelings and emotions. I cannot let myself be weak around her, I cannot let my feelings show. It's only even happened once to another bodyguard who was working in the same company as me. 4 years ago, there was this man who fell for the young woman he was supposed to be a bodyguard for and they started to have a secret relationship. From what I heard, the mother caught them once and she reported him to the company, he was blacklisted from every protective services company in the state and I never saw him again after that.

I have feelings for Jane but I can't have that happen to me. No matter how badly I want her. I can't and I won't.

•••

J A N E

I wake up in the morning with a raging headache and the feeling of wanting to throw up. I slowly get up from my bed and walk into my bathroom, I strip off my clothes and take a quick warm shower to try and make myself feel better. Sadly that didn't work so once I put on a clean fresh outfit I quickly go downstairs to the kitchen. I'm met with a good looking Miles sitting at the kitchen table. He's typing on his laptop and drinking his morning coffee per usual, he looks up at me and give me a small smile.

"Jane, good morning. How are you feeling?" He asks and I shake my head signaling that I don't feel good.

"Raging headache and I'm feeling nauseous. I'm scared to eat anything because I hate throwing up." I say and he laughs 

"You have a fear of throwing up?" He asks getting up from the table and walking towards the fridge then opening it. 

"100% I do and I am not the only one with that fear. It's a real thing Miles." I say laughing 

"I know, I know. My sister and my mother both had that fear." He says taking out a bowl covered in plastic wrap from the fridge. 

"What's that?" I ask watching him put in the microwave to heat it up. He turns towards me and leans back against the kitchen counter with his arms crossed. "It's soup. I ordered for you when I woke up because I knew you'd wake up with a hangover, and for some reason, soup always made me feel better whenever I'd be hungover." He says and I feel my cheeks turn hot. I try to hide the fact that he just made me blush. I turn away and go sit on the island. 

"I appreciate that a lot, thank you." I say and he nods with a smile.

"So you have a sister? Is she older or younger than you?" I ask and his smiles drops slightly.

"She was younger than me by 3 years." He says and my stomach drops.

"Was?" I ask and he nods letting out a deep sigh. 

"She died 6 years ago. Her and her boyfriend were coming back from a road trip and a truck crashed into them, driving them off the road. She was killed instantly, her boyfriend was in the hospital for 3 weeks before he died." He says and my eyes widen. 

"Miles.. oh my God. I - i'm so sorry, that's so terrible." I say and he shrugs his shoulders slowly.

"It was very hard on my family and I for a long time. My dad made us all do this family therapy thing together and it worked for my father and I but not my mom." He says 

"What do you mean it didn't work for your mom?" I ask 

"She turned to alcohol, she became a very bad alcoholic. After a year, my father couldn't handle it anymore and sent her off somewhere for rehab. I haven't heard from her since then and my relationship with my father went downhill after that." He says and I sit there in silence with my eyes widen and mouth gaped open.

"Mood killer, huh?" He says after moments of me staring at him in silence. 

"Miles, I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that. I cannot even imagine how terrible and traumatizing that must've been." I say 

"I've learned to move past it and try to forget about it." He says. The microwave goes off and he takes out the bowl then places it in front of me with a spoon. "It's hot so be careful." He says and I nod. 

He goes and sits back down at the table leaving me on the island to have my soup. After a short moment I get up and take my food then sit next to him on the table. 

"My mom died, as you know. She died from a car accident as well, but she was by herself. I was out and my father was at work. It was a drunk driver, he ran the red light and slammed into my mom's car. She died later that night in the hospital." I say and he looks at me with a sadness. 

"I'm sorry Jane. Nobody deserves to lose their mother in general, but especially like that." He says and I nod 

"You don't deserve what happened to you either." I say and he gives me a sly smile  

"Thank you Jane." He says and I gently put my hand on top of his in a comforting way. He goes silent and I see his face turn a light shade of red. He looks down at my hand on top of his and swallows hard then slowly pulls his hand away. He goes back to typing on his computer and I continue eating my soup as we fall into comfortable silence.

The silence is interrupted when my phone starts ringing abruptly. I pull out my phone from my pocket and see that it's Aaron calling me. I quickly get up from the table and walk out to the backyard before answering the phone. 

"Aaron, hey! What's going on?" I ask 

"Jane where the hell did you go last night? You just disappeared without telling any of us anything! We thought something happened to you and Hayley has been calling you and all of us all night!" He says frantically and I gasp slapping my head with my hand then wincing from my headache. 

"Oh my God! I'm so sorry, I completely forgot to text you and Hayley that I'm okay. There was an incident with me and some douche bag last night, my bodyguard beat him and we had to get out of there before he got into trouble." I say 

"What happened?" He asks and I sigh deeply. "I was at the bar ordering another drink and a guy came up to me, I was drunk and acting stupid so I asked him to dance with me. We started dancing but then he started getting aggressive and wouldn't let go of me. So Miles beat his ass." I say and he laughs 

"Well that's good then, at least he handled it." He says 

"It's his job to protect me so he kind of had to." I say and Aaron smacks his lips and scoffs. "What?" I ask confused.

"I'm pretty sure that even if he wasn't your bodyguard then he would have beat that guy to a pulp." He says 

"Why do you say that?" I ask 

"You didn't notice but the rest of us did Janey. That guy couldn't keep his eyes off of you or your body. Sure he was there to protect you but I think he might have some feelings for you." He says and I throw my head back laughing loudly.

"Oh please! He most definitely does not have any sort of feelings like that towards me Aaron. He's my bodyguard, that's it." I say

"You didn't see the way he was looking at you last night Jane. We all did and those eyes were locked on you the entire night. Not in just a protective manner." He says and I scoff 

"You are all ridiculous, it's not even allowed! He isn't allowed to have any sort of romantic feelings or relationships with anyone in the family that he's working for." I say

"Maybe he's just good at hiding his feelings for you. But I did want to ask you something." He says 

"What is it?" I ask and he sighs deeply

"What's the real reason you invited me to go out last night? You could've just gone out with Hayley and the other girls but you invited me. Why?" He asks 

"I told you that I wanted to catch up Aaron." I say 

"You did tell me that, but that didn't happen. You danced with your friends and then some random guy. You talked to me for like 2 seconds and the entire night you also kept looking over at Miles." He says and I feel my heart begin to beat faster. 

"What are you getting at?" I ask 

"It just seemed to me as if you only invited me to maybe make him jealous or upset for some reason." He says and I scoff 

"How could you possibly think that? Why would I want to make him jealous or upset?" I ask feeling my hands begin to sweat.

"I don't know Jane, that's what I'm wondering. Do you feel something for him?" He asks 

"That's ridiculous Aaron! No I do not have feelings for him and I don't have time for this anymore, I have to go." I say and hang up before I could hear what he has to say. I let out a deep breath before going back inside. I sit back on table silently and continue eating my soup. 

"Is everything okay?" Miles asks and I nod without saying anything. 

I quickly finish eating and walk to the sink rinsing out the bowl and spoon then loading them in the dishwasher. 

"I'm going to lay in bed to try and get rid of this headache." I say and rush out of the kitchen and upstairs to my bedroom. I shut my door and quickly get in bed laying  under the covers, my mind going back to what Aaron just said.

I absolutely do not have any feelings towards Miles, that would be weird and it wouldn't even turn into anything if I did. It wouldn't be allowed! Yes maybe he's insanely good looking, strong and sexy but I do not have feelings for him! Plus, I'm 21 and he's 31, that's a huge age gap. Yes sometimes I do imagine kissing him and being under him or on top and images race through my mind but that doesn't mean anything. 

I can't have feelings for him, I just can't.