My Temptation

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M I L E S

I messed up, I messed up really bad with Jane. I can't believe I said that to her, I mean what the hell is wrong with me? Her mother died, her father is almost never home and I blamed that on her. I blamed her  for her father never being home... and I called her a bitch. The look on her face when I said that is still imprinted in my mind... I hurt her real bad. It's been 5 days since I said that and she hasn't said a single word to me, she has avoided me at all costs. It's driving me mad and I don't know how much longer I can go without hearing her voice. Her voice is so angelic, it's like the sound of Heaven. 

I know I shouldn't feel attraction to her, I know it's wrong for me to think of her in that way but I can't stop. When I first got hired, before I even got to the house, I couldn't have ever imagined how beautiful Jane would be. Her voice, her scent, her smile and just everything about her drives me wild.

That day she was crying to me about her mother passing, all I wanted to do was wrap my arms around her and never let her go until she was okay. It took everything in me to not kiss her in that moment. Everything about her is taking over every part of my mind and I don't know how to stop thinking about her. And now she truly does hate me and it's killing me.

I have to fix this somehow, I need her forgiveness. I know I can't have her the way I want but I just want her to not hate me. 

•••

I finish getting dressed and ready for the day then walk out of my room and to the kitchen where I'm met with her. My entrance gets her attention but only for a quick second, she turns back around and completely ignores my presence.

"Hi Jane." I say and I hear nothing. I'm not going to stop talking to her until she says something back, who knows how long that'll take. It's day 5 now, and yes, I'm counting the days.

"Did you sleep well last night?" I ask sitting at the island to face her and she immediately turns her body around and opens the fridge looking around aimlessly. I sigh deeply running my hand through my hair.

"You know Jane, you are going to have to speak to me sooner or later. You can't stay quiet forever." I say and I hear a quiet scoff coming from her. That's progress! 

I get up from my chair and walk around the island to her and stand right by the fridge. She side eyes me and rolls her eyes before continuing to look around the fridge. "You're letting the coldness from the fridge out. It's not good to keep the fridge open if you aren't getting anything from it." I say 

She ignores me once again, grabs a bottle of water from the fridge and slams it shut. She walks to the other side of the kitchen and I follow right behind her. 

"Jane please! I'm sorry." I say with eagerness in my voice. I grab her arm and turn her around to face but she jerks her arm away with great force. 

"Don't fucking touch me asshole!" She yells and throws the water from the bottle at my face, soaking me and my shirt. I whip my head back from the sudden action and step back completely. I let out a frustrated sigh and grab a paper towel to dry my face off.

"Are you kidding me Jane?!" I yell 

"Don't you dare raise your voice at me! I did nothing to you, you have no right to be upset!" She yells 

"You absolutely did not need to do that!" I yell and she gives me a death glare. She walks closer to me until she's a centimeter away from me and she stares up at me with anger.

"What part of me saying that I hate you a few days ago did you not understand?" She asks and I look down at the floor without responding. 

"Yeah exactly. Stop trying to talk to me Miles, you and I are nothing. We aren't friends and we aren't acquaintances... we aren't anything! You're only here because my father who's never here, like you said, pays you big bucks to watch over me like I'm 5 years old." She says 

"That's not - it's not true. It's not like that." I say in a hushed tone and she shakes her head and walks away leaving the kitchen without uttering another word. I wait until I hear her bedroom door slam shut to go to my room and change shirts before going back to the kitchen and cleaning the floor from the water.

She spoke to me, at least she finally spoke to me. It's progress... kind of.

•••

J A N E

Okay maybe throwing water at his face was a bit much, but in that moment, I couldn't have cared less. I haven't spoken to Miles since that day where we got into an argument in the kitchen and he said what he said to me. I never would have thought he would say something so hurtful to me, the words keep replaying in my mind. But at least it's easier now, hating him is so much easier than being attracted to him. 

I pace around my room with so many thoughts running through my mind. I want to get back at him for what he said to me, I want to make him pay for hurting my feelings like that. I grab my phone and go through my contacts until I land on the person that would be perfect for getting back at Miles. I tap on the name and hit call as I put the phone to my ear, after 3 rings, the call connects.

"Hey Aaron!" I say 

"Uhm hey Jane, it's been a long time. Why are you calling me out of the blue?" He asks and I smack my lips letting out a small chuckle.

"I can't call my ex boyfriend just to catch up? I just wanted to see how you're doing." I say opening my closet and looking throughout all my party outfits

"Well, I've been doing great. How have you been?" He asks and I smile to myself when I see the perfect outfit. 

"I'm great Aaron. Honestly, I really wanted to call you to see if you wanted to go out tonight? We could get some drinks and really catch up." I say 

"You want to go out with me tonight? It's been a year since we broke up Jane, why are you wanting to go out with me all of a sudden?" He asks with suspicion in his voice 

"Well like you said, it's been a year since we've spoken or even seen each other. I don't want us to be enemies, I want us to be friends." I say and I hear him sigh on the other end of the phone.

"Where do you want to go?" He asks 

"The club on Paradise Avenue, do you remember which one I'm talking about?" I ask

"Club Solace? I remember it." He says and I smile to myself excitedly. "Great! How about we say like midnight?" I ask

"That's fine with me. Should we invite a few more people? It might get boring with just you and I." He says

"I agree, I'll invite my girls and you can invite the guys." I say and he agrees before disconnecting the call.

I toss my phone on the bed and walk out of my room stopping at the staircase railing. 

"Going on tonight Miles!" I yell out to him. I hear him quickly rush out of the kitchen and his eyes meet mine. He looks up at me confused.

"Wow, you're finally deciding to leave the house?" He says with a surprised look on his face and I roll my eyes at him.

"A few friends and I are going to Club Solace tonight, at midnight . So I hope you're ready to finally do what you came here for." I say and walk back to my room before he could say anything else. 

I know exactly how to piss him off and it's going to be great. 

•••

I slip on my leather heel boots and stand up to look at myself in the mirror, this is the perfect outfit for tonight. My black leather dress stops just above my mid thigh and hugs my body tightly. I spray on perfume and apply deodorant before grabbing my things and walking out of my room. I walk downstairs and see Miles walking out of his room dressed in all black. His eyes fall on me and follow me as I get to bottom of the stairs and walk to the front door. I look at him to see that he's still standing in the same spot.

"If you're just going to stand there then I'll happily go out by myself." I say snapping him back into reality. He grabs his keys and walks towards me opening the door and letting me walk out first. 

"Nice try." He says and I roll my eyes before walking down the front steps to his car. He unlocks the car door and I open the passenger side before he could and I get in. He gets in the drivers side and turns on the car then drives off. The car ride there is dead silent, I keep my body turned away from him and face the window. The tension in the car is so thick and heavy. If there's no traffic on the roads then we will get there within 15 minutes and I won't have to be stuck in this car with him anymore.

To my benefit, there wasn't any traffic and we actually arrived within 10 minutes instead of 15. He finally finds a parking spot close enough to the club and parks. I immediately get out of the car and start walking to the line leading into the club. I hear Miles following behind me closely, I get to the line and he stands behind me. I cross my arms over my chest and look down at the ground as I wait for everyone to get here.

After another few minutes, My ex Aaron and a few of his guy friends get there and meet me at the line.

"Jane." Aaron says, I turn to him and smile as he pulls me into a tight hug. I look over at Miles and see his jaw clenching tightly as he stares at us hugging. I quickly look away from him and hold back my laughter. I pull away from the hug and greet the other guys. My girl friends show up immediately after and run up to me. My best friend Hayley hugs me tightly and squeals in excitement.

"I've missed you Janey!" Hayley says pulling away from the hug and I laugh then quickly hug my other 4 friends.

"I've missed you too Hayley. I haven't really been out much for a few days now. If you know why." I say widening my eyes tilting my head to Miles. She sneakily turns her head and looks at him quickly before looking back at me immediately. She lightly smacks my shoulder and pulls me closer to whisper in my ear. "You never mentioned how insanely sexy he is!" She whispers and I roll my eyes shaking my head.

"He's insanely rude and a big asshole." I whisper back in her ear. 

"What did he do?" She asks 

"Don't worry about it. I'm going to have fun tonight and also get back at him for what he said." I say with a sly smirk and she laughs. "I'll gladly help you then. You're my best friend of 8 years so if you don't like someone for whatever reason, I don't like them either." She says putting her arm around my shoulder. 

Me, Hayley and my other girl friends stand around in the line and talk while moving up slowly in the line. I can feel Miles eyes staring me down the entire time we are in line and it's making me laugh inside. 

You just wait Miles, this is just the start.