My Temptation

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{TW for this chapter; this chapter does involve abuse}


J A N E

I wake up to the sun shining through my curtains and the smell of bacon. I sit up in bed and stretch before getting up and going to the bathroom. Once I finish getting ready for the day, I go downstairs to the kitchen and I'm met with Mason. 

It's been three weeks since our first date and we have been seeing each other every day and night since then. He's been great, he's taken me on so many nice and beautiful dates, he buys me a fresh bouquet of flowers every few days and last night was the first time I let him stay the night. It's great but sometimes I still get that weird feeling inside me that I can't shake off. But anyway, he's cooking breakfast for the both of us right now.

These past three weeks has helped me forget about Miles... well sort of. I don't think I could ever completely forget about Miles but it's getting better. At least that's what I keep telling myself.

"Good morning beautiful." Mason says pulling me into him and giving me a kiss on the lips. I wrap my arms around his neck and kiss back. 

"Morning hot stuff. What time did you wake up?" I ask grabbing two glasses from the cupboard then pouring orange juice in them

"Just about an hour ago but I didn't want to wake you. So I made my way down here and started making us some breakfast. I hope you don't mind me using your kitchen." He says cracking four eggs into a pan then scrambling them 

"I definitely don't mind. I like having you here and it feels nice having someone do this stuff for me." I say smiling and he lets out a small chuckle

"Well get used to this, I'm not going anywhere. You're mine." He says winking at me, and there it is. That feeling coming back.

I give him a smile without saying anything else. The way he just winked at me and said that made my stomach turn. I can't completely shake this feeling out of me but I don't even know what this feeling really is. Is it really just nerves about moving on from Miles? Deep down, do I still wish that this was Miles and I instead of Mason and I?  I wish I could figure this feeling out.

I want to call Hayley and talk to her about it but the way she acted the last time was terrible, when we spoke on the phone and I told her about these weird feelings towards Mason. I haven't spoken to her since the phone call we had the day of Mason and I's first date. She was just being so insensitive so I haven't bothered to reach out to  her and she hasn't reached out to me either so I'm not sure where her and I stand right now.

"I'll be right back, okay?" I say and he just nods giving me a smile 

I kiss his check and walk out of the kitchen. I make my way to the living room but as I'm walking there, I walk past Miles's old room. I haven't gone inside it for a couple weeks now, I put my hand on the knob and hold it there for a second debating if I should go in or not. After a few moments of arguing with myself, I pull my hand away and go sit down on the couch.

I pull out my phone and open up my photo album, I scroll up until my finger lands on a picture of Miles. I click on it to open it and stare at him, the sadness growing inside me again. The feeling of his absence in this house is deafening, I miss him so much. I have tried so hard to move on from him, I really have but deep down... I knew I never could. I feel so terrible for wasting Mason's time but I can't do this. I can't keep seeing him while I'm dreaming about another guy and wishing to be with him. 

I leave my phone on the couch and get up, rushing to the kitchen. Mason is finishing up putting the food on our plates when my presence catches his attention. He turns to me and puts the pan down on the stovetop then walks over to me.

"Is everything okay babe?" He asks rubbing my arms up and down comfortingly but I gently shrug his arms off and take a step back. His face grows concerned, "What's going on?" He asks 

"I can't do this anymore." I say sighing 

"Do what? What're you talking about Jane?" He asks and I can hear his voice getting angry and loud. My heart begins beating rapidly and the hairs on the back of my neck stand straight.

"Mason, you are so great and these past three weeks have been great. But I haven't really been honest with you." I say and he just stares at me with an emotionless face for a second before speaking, "Honest about what?" He says angrily 

"There was this guy that I fell for before I met you and I have not gotten over him. I still think about him, dream about him and I wish he was here." I say and I see his Adams Apple bob as he swallows hard

"You wish he was here instead of me?" He asks and I just look down at the floor then look back up at him and slowly nod. He nods his head slowly, letting out a deep breath. He turns away from me and walks back to the stove, he picks up the pans he used and places them in the sink.

"Mason... I am so sorry that I wasted your time. I tried so hard to give you and us a chance, I tried to get over him and move on. But I couldn't." I say feeling tears form in my eyes and roll down my cheeks

"I wanted to give you the world Jane, the fucking world!" He screams slamming his hand on the sink causing me to jump. Goosebumps form all over my arms in fear. I take another step back and slowly reach for my phone in my back pocket but then I remember I left it on the couch. 

Idiot! 

"Mason, please calm down, I'm so-" I begin saying but I'm cut off by a plate flying at my face. I gasp and cover my face ducking down quickly, barley missing it. The plate crashes against the wall, shattering into pieces and falling to the floor.

"Mason! What the hell!" I yell slowly coming back up. He angrily stomps over to me and grabs me by the neck with both of his hands, he slams me against the wall and his face is dangerously close to mine to the point where I could count every single piece of hair on his face. 

I gasp out for air and grip his arm with both of my hands to try and pry his hands off my neck but I can't.

"How dare you do this me?! I could have given you everything!  You are such an ungrateful fucking bitch Jane and you are going to regret doing this." He says through gritted teeth before tighten his grip around my neck, he pulls me back from the wall then slams me back against it hard. My head smacks against the wall but I can barley utter out a sound. 

"M-m... mason." I say trying to catch my breath 

"SHUT UP!" He screams and releases my neck then punches me so hard across the face causing me to fall to the floor.

I hold my neck breathing in and out rapidly, trying to crawl away from him but he grabs a fist full of my hair and yanks me up off the floor. I scream and cry out in pain, I try running from him but his grip on my hair tightens and I swear I can hear some of my hair rip out from my scalp.

"Mason please, please stop! I'm sorry!" I yell out in sobs 

He uses my hair to turn me around so I can face him and then uses his other hand to grip my face tightly. 

"You were just fucking using me, you are like every other gold digging whore out there in the world. It's time for pay back now." He says and punches me again - much harder this time, my head whips to the side and I taste blood coming from my mouth almost immediately.

"No no Mason, no! I wasn't using you, I have feelings for you but not the way I do for this guy and I didn't want to continue on with this because you deserve someone who only wants you!" I say in pleading way while sobbing 

"Oh really?! You did this for me? You are fucking lying, you are doing this for yourself! You are a vindictive, lying bitch Jane and I hate you so much that I could kill you right now." He says and I stare at him in pure terror and fear. I look into his eyes and it's like the guy I met weeks ago and have gotten to know is completely gone. 

My mind goes back to the sickening feelings I've been feeling these past few weeks and everything makes sense now. This guy is a crazy, psychotic, abusive piece of shit! My gut has been trying to warn me and I haven't been able to put my finger on these feelings but now I have. 

"Mason stop!" I yell trying to push and kick him off of me but he knees me in the stomach, knocking the wind out of me. I gasp loudly and hold my stomach trying to catch my breath.

He pushes me to the floor and gets on top of me, wrapping his hands around my neck and slowly tightening his grip. I try clawing and scratching his hands to get them off of me but he doesn't budge. I kick my legs and I'm frantically trying to look for anything that I can defend myself with when suddenly my eyes land on a shard of the plate he broke. He continues to tighten his grip and I can feel myself starting to give up, I can feel darkness started to consume me but I fight it.

I reach far and hard, grabbing the shard and I swipe it across his face, fast and hard - cutting his eye. He abruptly pulls back, holding his eye and screaming in pain. I hurriedly push myself up and off the floor but before I could run, he grabs my arm and I elbow him in the face, knocking him down. Without looking  back, I run out of the kitchen and run out the front door. Right when I get down my front lawn, my body slams into another one and I fall to the ground.

"Jane! What happened to you?!" I hear the voice yell, I look up at see my father with an angry and worried look on his face. 

"Dad!" I yell out sobbing, he grabs my hand and pulls me off the ground and into a hug. 

"Janey, what happened?! Who the fuck did this to you?!" He yells 

"Mason! I broke up with him and he went crazy!" I say sobbing into his chest 

Before he could say anything else, Mason runs out of the house but stops dead in his tracks when he sees my father. 

"I'm going to fucking kill you asshole!" He yells and Mason takes off running. My father goes to run after him but I hold onto him tighter, not letting him go.

"No please dad! I need you here." I say in between sniffles

"Let me take you to the hospital so they can check on your injuries." He says and I nod without saying anything else. 

My father opens the passenger side of his car and I get in. He shuts the door behind me and before he gets in, he goes up to the house and shuts the front door, locking it. Once he gets back in his car, he immediately speeds off making his way to the closest hospital. 

The car ride is silent for what seemed like forever but my father finally speaks up, breaking the silence.

"Tell me exactly what happened sweetheart." He says and I cross my arms over my chest, hugging myself. 

"This all started because of Miles..." I say and my father looks at me confused, "Miles? Our old bodyguard?" He asks and I nod my head before continuing.

"He left because of me. I fell for him, I fell in love with him and he fell for me.  Well, he never actually told me that he has feelings for me but he showed it and he made it clear. But with the company he works for, it's not allowed to have any sort of romantic feelings or relationships with anyone in the family, so he was continuously trying to fight off his feelings for me. Anyway, the night before he left, we had a moment in the backyard and that really set him off. He got scared and he left the next morning, as you know." I say and my father's mouth drops open in shock but he doesn't say anything. 

"I was trying to move on and forget about Miles, so I started going out with Mason after Hayley introduced us. It was going good and it was sort of helping me forget about Miles, but today I realized that I still love him and I can't move on from him. So ultimately, I decided to end this with Mason because I didn't want to lead him on anymore. He was making us breakfast, I went into the kitchen and ended things. Clearly... he didn't take it well. He threw a plate at me and started hitting me, choking me and pushing me down. He pushed me on the floor and started choking me once again, I was able to grab a piece of the broken plate he threw and I cut his eye then knocked him down. I ran out of the house and there you were." I say as tears roll down my face.

"He's going to pay for this Jane. I promise you that." He says with an angry look on his face

"How are you going to make him pay?" I ask and he shakes his head, "You let me  worry about that." He says and I nod my head 

We stay silent the rest of the way to the hospital. Once we get there and my father parks, we get out and he rushes me inside. 

"Please help! My daughter was choked and badly beaten!" He says frantically 

They give my father the paperwork and two nurses rush over to me quickly and take me back into a room. Thirty minutes later, I'm changed into a hospital gown and I'm lying in a hospital bed. They need to run some tests to make sure I have no serious injuries or concussions from hitting my head.

Starring up at the ceiling of the hospital room, my mind keeps replaying the events of what happened with Mason. The way he just completely switched up and went crazy is absolutely insane, I can't believe I couldn't see him for what he truly is. I don't know what would've happened to me if that piece of glass wasn't there. 

Would he have actually killed me? Lord, I don't even want to think about that.