Letting Him Go (Revised) completed

Chapter 17

*Alli

*Three months later...

We had been home three months, and baby Alexander was growing so fast and spoiled rotten. My parents and Nick's parents drove us crazy with everything they bought him, but what could we do? They loved him, and buying him things was just one of the ways they showed how much he meant to them.

I was still adjusting to being a mom, and Nick was a great dad. He always changed diapers and wanted to feed him. I loved watching the two of them together. He held him so carefully like he thought he would hurt him, and it was the cutest thing to me.

Things were getting hectic with the pack, and my dad wanted to step down and hand the pack over to Nick.

Nick seemed hesitant about taking over. He had been acting weird for the past few weeks, and I was worried about what could be going on with him. He seemed distant and distracted.

"What's running through that crazy brain of yours that has you ignoring me?" Macy said, putting her hands on her hips and her eyes trained on mine.

"I was just thinking Nick has been acting weird lately. I mean, he's just not being his normal carefree self. Something is bothering him, and it bothers me that he has not come to talk to me about it." I explained.

"Look, Alli, don't take this the wrong way, but have you considered that whatever is up with him has something to do with you? I have to say it. The whole first mate thing, and you not being his and him not being yours, is affecting him, " she said, making a lot of sense.

"Look, I know this is probably something you don't want to hear, but at least think about what you would do if he did have that issue," she said, walking to the door.

Why did things have to be like this? What had I ever done to have all this trouble? It was all out of my hands. It wasn't my fault that he was married when I met my mate.

What was I supposed to do to be a home wrecker? I loved Nick, but there were still some feelings for Matt. What worried me so much was the fact that if I felt like this, how could he not be feeling the same things I was feeling but for Olivia?

*Matthew*

It was time to go home and do what I had to do for my pack. Things had been so good for Isabelle and me; there was no worrying about who the future Luna would be or wondering if the old lady was telling the truth.

I had taken these few months to devote all my time and attention to my little girl. Looking at her filled me with so much love. She was my whole world; nothing mattered more to me than her.

We had spent all these months on the beach, taking in the sun and falling asleep to the sound of the ocean. I had to admit that I enjoyed it more than I thought I would.

I picked Isabelle up and started heading for the door. The time had come. We were going home, and I knew there would be no waiting for Alli. My pack depended on me, and I had to do my duty.

My heart hurt thinking about never being able to be with Alli. She was my mate. It made me sick thinking that soon I would make someone who wasn't my mate my mate for the second time.

I often wondered if she thought of me at all. Did she feel anything for me? She had to feel something. She had to feel the burning fire I felt when I was near her, too. All those times I had gone to her, knowing that she was not mine, broke me to pieces.

I held her when her heart was breaking for someone else. I had fought the urge to touch her and how I wanted to kiss her and love her like I wanted to.

No, fate could not have made us mates for us not to be able to be together. She was my other half and would never fit with Nick the way she would with me.