Letting Him Go (Revised) completed

Chapter 19

*Chapter 19*

*Matthew*

My drive home was hard. My stomach was so sick, and I had to pull over to vomit. I knew my house would be full of people, so I drove to the back, pulled up to a back entrance, and walked in without anyone seeing me.

I wasn't in a state to see anyone. The only person I wanted right now was the one I had walked away from. I snuck into Isabelle's room just to look at her things. I wished I had the comfort of my little girl right now.

I knew that Mandy would bring her back on Monday, so I snuck into my room and locked the door behind me.

*Nick*

Alli's phone call was surprising, leaving me wondering why she wanted to meet. I had gotten to my car as fast as I could. Hope sprung to life inside me, and I pushed the gas down more to get there faster.

When I got there, Alli was sitting on a bench waiting for me. I walked over to her, and I could see that she had tears in her eyes. I wanted nothing more than to hold her and tell her that things would be okay. She looked up at me, and I could see all the hurt on her face.

"Okay, Nick. You have me here, so explain," she said, crossing her arms over her chest.

Here went nothing. I hoped that Alli would understand and that we could fix things.

"Olivia called me a few months ago to tell me that she was pregnant and didn't know what to do. I should have told you then that I had spoken to her, but I didn't want to upset you." I started to explain.

"So you have known all this time that she was pregnant! "She yelled.

"Did you not think that I would find out about it?" She accused.

"Alli, the baby is not mine," I said, looking her right in the eyes.

"What? "She said, looking shocked.

"It's not?"

"How do you explain how guilty you looked." She said, getting off the bench.

"You're lying!" She said, poking my chest with her finger.

"I looked guilty because I was. I knew Olivia was pregnant, and I had talked to her behind your back, and that was a mistake, but Alli, that was my only mistake." He stated fiercely.

*Alli*

"How can that be true?" I whispered.

"I promise you that it is. You can ask Olivia if you want to, or we could test the baby once it's born to see if that would make you feel better." He offered, clearly trying to make amends.

"Alli, I won't lie and say that I didn't have mixed feelings about Olivia because I did. For a while, I was convinced I loved you both. And in a way, I do. What it comes down to is that I love you more. Olivia could have clarified things about the baby while there, but she didn't. She wanted you to hate me and think the worst. That's what makes you better than her. You don't have a mean bone in your body." He said with admiration in his voice.

"On the other hand, Macy is another story. That girl is scary. I thought that girl was going to kill me. She even gave Olivia a scare on her way out." He said, pulling me close to him.

"Please don't ever doubt me again. I would never do anything to hurt you, and I'm sorry I didn't tell you about talking to Olivia. It was dumb of me, and I'll never do something like that again." he promised.

"Where did you leave her?" I asked, hoping he would say he left her on the side of the street in a horrible neighborhood.

"I took her to the airport and told her to go home and not ever come look for me again. I won't say that I'm not affected because I was. I feel things for her. I'm not sure if you understand that or not. I just can't have her coming between you and me. We are a family; we have a son, and I would never trade you guys for anything in this world." He said, holding me tight.