Impulse

11

Nate

The kiss was all i could think about until god knows what time i actually fell asleep. Her lips were so soft, she tasted like cherries with a hint of strawberry and everything about that kiss satisfied every craving i had until we broke away, now it's 100x worse than before. I tried washing it out of my brain with every true crime case, comedy movie, and murder mystery book i could find, but nothing can distract me for more than 5 minutes without my brain wandering right back to it.

I have to talk to her before tonight, but i don't even know what to say. 'Sorry i kept kissing you, i didn't wanna stop' like no. I can't say that. What can i even say?

I spent my morning working on the song, it was all coming to me so fast. It helps when you have a muse and that kiss and everything i know about her this far is my muse. I got the first draft down in less than two hours. Now i needed food and coffee.

I walked to the kitchen and grabbed both drinking my coffee and ate my pastry. When i walked back towards my bed Sterling walked out bumping into me.

"Oh sorry" she mumbled looking up at me "good morning" she smiled a small, but still very pretty smile.

"Good morning" i smiled, i couldn't help it.

"Do you wanna talk?" i asked immediately after. It needed to happen, now is better than never.

She nodded small enough for me to see. We walked right back into her room and she sat on her bed.

"I'm sorry for that yesterday, that was on me" i admitted.

"i suggested it, doesn't that make it partially on me too?" she laughed a little.

"Yeah but i uh" i cleared my throat "i continued it" i trailed off thinking about it all over again.

"We got it out of our system for tonight" she spoke jokingly, but she wasn't. We both know she wasn't.

"Fair point" i laughed sitting next to her. Dangerous move, but i wanted to be near her.

I looked over at her, but she was already looking at me.

"Did you eat? I could make you breakfast this time whatever you want, well from what we have here. Pancakes or" she started, but i interrupted her by leaning in fast before she could react and kissed her again. She immediately kissed me back and it took everything in me to pull away quicker this time, but i did it.

Her whole face was pink and it was cute. I liked being the reason behind it. I did it to make sure i had the self control, is what i'm telling myself.

"That's how it'll be tonight, except i won't catch you off guard" i smiled.

She laughed a little and nodded "yeah please don't catch me off guard there will be a million pictures of 'Sterling in headlights' surfacing the internet"

"Also i already ate, that's a sweet offer though thank you" i replied to what she had been saying before.

"Of course" she spoke softly looking at me, i needed her to look away because i couldn't. I don't know what it was about her that had me in a chokehold, but here i am.

"We're still okay right?" i asked her.

"Yeah of course, we're two attractive people. It'd be insane if we were a little attracted to eachother right? We don't have to make a big deal about it. We're friends that have to fake date for the media, that's all there is to it" She reassured me giving me a smile.

"Right" i replied looking at her for a few beats.

I cleared my throat before getting up "i've gotta go revise this song and see if i can get it ready for one of the future tour date, holler if you need anything" i spoke getting myself out of there before i did everything impulsive thought in my head.