i don't know when i first felt this...
maybe it was when i lost in a contest,
or maybe when i failed a test,
or maybe when i felt left out from my classmates,
or maybe when i felt me fat and ugly.
or maybe when my family never had meals together...
a deep hollow black hole within,
sucking all joy out of me,
an unexplainable feeling,
of rainy clouds above me,
of a hopeless future ahead,
it follows me everywhere.
feeling I am worthless,
my passion rusted for things i used to love,
sometimes i can't sleep at night,
sometimes i just want to sleep forever,
never wake up- if i could just stop-
escape this world... i can't anymore...
as i grew older, i learned faked my smiles,
showing i am okay- to just carry on,
but when will I stop drowning?
i'm screaming but no one can hear me,
enveloping me in black ink,
i'm drowning, i'm drowning...
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Misty Sea | Poems
RandomAnother tear fell from her eyes and it joined the trillion tears in the sea. Then, she jumped into the sea. Under the sea, she tried to find and catch her old tears but it wasn't found. Suddenly, she realized that she was already in a pool of tears...
