~ The Aizawa Family ~

{(18) 𝙼𝚊ybe a 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔 𝚠𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚍𝚘 𝚞𝚜 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚘𝚍 }

𝙽𝚎𝚠 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚢
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{Recap}
" My childhood best friend and ex boyfriend and ex bullied victim" I said bluntly . " You Bullied him?"
" Yeah , I don't even know I felt like I was taking out my problems and insecurities onto him" I feel ashamed talking about Deku and our past.

" how about next session we should talk about your trauma and what you experienced" I nodded because I can't say no.
" So do you ever hear negative thoughts like to hurt yourself or to cause harm-" just as she was talking the alarm went off.

" I guess that's our session I see you next you did very good" She said smiling and waving goodbye as I walked out that was the most embarrassing and humiliating 2 hours of my life I'm so pathetic".
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Dad came to pick me up asked me how my dad was and I didn't feel like answering like I'm so fucking embarrassed.

I think I develop a new habit I bite my thumb when I get anxious or nervous or when something bothering me.

I got out the car when we pulled up to the house I went to my room and lock the door for unwanted guests ( like Eyebags) I went to the bathroom to take a shower and I just felt disgusted with myself I don't know how to explain it.

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I got out of the shower and went to my bed to apologize to shoto again .

{ Messages}
Me: Shoto I'm sorry just talk to me please
Me: please
Me: I'm sorry
Me:sorry
Me: I love u I'm so sorry
Me: I'm sorry
Me: sorry
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Shoto: please stop texting me
Shoto: I think we should be on a break
Me: what? You gotta be kidding me please I'm sorry I love you!
Shoto: you almost killed yourself and that's a lot and I'll just be in your way if I keep trying to help you and you ignore my help and I think maybe we should take a break from each other so we can heal and come back. I love you but I don't know if I can trust you anymore like I want to but if I put my trust in you and you lie to me will really hurt I'm sorry goodbye Katsuki.
Me : I'm sorry I fucked up and take therapy so I can get help
Shoto: you hate therapy and probably was force into it
Me: please don't leave me
Me:please
Shoto: Bye Katsuki

{ off Messages}

Did he just leave me ? What is this feeling? It hurts like it's familiar but it really hurts.

I felt tears come down my face and I can't gasp what just happened. What's the point of life, huh?

I heard a knock and wiped my tears " Hey kiddo we just wanted to wish you goodnight" Papa said coming into the room with dad and I scooted over on the bed to make space.

" We just got your therapy report and it seems like you did pretty good for your first day"Dad said giving me a pat on the back and staring to rub circles on there.

" I don't want to go it's embarrassing and I don't like talking about my past and it's just stupid like I know I fucked up everything but it's like if this is a punishment, I rather like a beating or a punch in my face than that shit." I explained trying to stop him from touching me.

" Kat, give it a try for us like try a week and we'll see about taking you out if you don't like it .How's that?" Papa asked " Sure" I said bluntly .

" How about you invite Todoroki for Eri celebration?" Dad asked and that just reminded of me that pain " Me and Todoroki broke up" and I saw the widen looks on there faces " Why ?! Y'all are so perfect together?" Papa yelled " He just wanted a break".

What's the point of anything

I bet he will go to Deku

He finally broke away

He's happy knowing that he got away from you

He hates you, he hates you !!

I know

Shit I was zoning out again

" We'll stop bothering you , just talk to us if something is bothering you. Good night Kat". Papa said, smiling slightly and came to kiss me on my forehead and Dad did the same.

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Sorry it's so short I didn't even realize until I saw  it I thought this was at least 800 or 1000 like the usual but shit I was wrong 🥲😀

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