Come back to me-Gracie Abrams

chapter 34

Gracies POV-

I don't really know what to do. My heart feels so broken. I thought that at Livs party it was a one time thing so I just let it go but it was more than that. I've just been laying in bed all day and Liv came to stay with me after I called her and basically sobbed on the phone to her.

I can't stop crying, I just can't do anything right now.

"you really shouldn't be here." I heard Liv say downstairs.

"I know but I need to see her Liv, it's killing me not to."

I walked downstairs and they both looked at me.

"can we please talk?" scarlet said walking towards me.

"scar." I said in a serious tone.

I put my hand up between us and she stopped walking and looked down.

"i'll be upstairs if you need anything." Liv said walking away.

"sit with me? please." she said softly.

I nodded and we sat down on my couch.

It was quiet until I couldn't take it anymore.

"scar I think you should get help and like go to rehab." I said looking down.

"what? Gracie i'm fine I don't need rehab." she said.

"fine but I um." I said.

I felt my breathing get heavier and tears started rolling down my cheek. I looked up at her and her face softened. My heart is literally broken. I love her so much but she needs help and she needs to get better.

"I can't be with you scar." I said looking at her.

Her face went pale and her eyes started watering. She grabbed my hands gently and I looked down at them. I began to cry even more.

"i'll stop I will just please gracie please don't leave me." she said.

She put her head down and began crying so I wrapped my arms around her.

"I don't want to baby I really don't." I whispered.

"I can stop and get better I promise." she whispered back.

"you're right you can stop and get better but scar I feel so shitty and-"

she backed away and lifted my head making me look at her.

"why do you feel shitty? It's not your fault my love." she said rubbing her thumb on my hand.

I sighed taking a deep breath in.

"Scarlet I know it's not my fault but you hid it so well and I was the one who should have realized that you were doing things and not being yourself but I didn't and that breaks me. It breaks me that I didn't realize that the girl I love was fucking going through things I mean what kind of girlfriend does that make me? I feel so horrible." I said upset.

"you're an amazing girlfriend gracie. you're the best thing thats ever happened to me but you're right I did hide it well and thats no one's fault but mine. I hid it so well so that no one realized because I don't want to be a burden." she said softly,looking down.

I lifted her head up slowly and leaned in kissing her. I held onto her face as we separated and put my forehead on hers.

"you will never be a burden. I just love you and want to help you but you can't be helped if this is how you're choosing to cope. I've always said that you could come to me if anything and I meant it. I love you more than anything scar." I said.

She nodded and hugged me tightly.

"I'll get help, I'll go to rehab and get better but please don't leave me I promise i'll get better." she whispered.

"Scar I can't. I can't do this. You need to get better for yourself and yourself only. Not me or finley or your friends but for you. I can help you find a rehab center but I can't be with you right now scar it's too hard. You not only lied to everyone but you lied to me, for almost a whole month and you promised me scar, when I found out from Hayes and I just can't do this i'm sorry. I love you so much but I can't do this." I said looking at her.

She nodded with tears in her eyes and leaned in to kiss me. We made out for a couple seconds but it wasn't in a sexual way.

"will you come and visit me? while i'm in rehab?" she asked.

"yes, i'll try to but you need to understand that this is really hard for me and I don't really know what to do." I said hugging her.

I began to sob as she held me in her arms. I hated this but I'm doing it for a good reason and I just hope she knows that and understands.

"I promise i'll get better for me, for you, for us. I know you can't be with me right now but I promise you that i'm gonna be the one that you marry because i'm not going anywhere. I'll always be in love with you and I will always be yours." she says, kissing my cheek.

I smile a little and put my hand on her cheek.

"this isn't forever scar, i'll always be yours no matter what but right now its whats best for you to focus on getting better." I said.

"can I stay with you tonight? then tomorrow we can try looking for a place for me to go to." she asked.

I nodded my head yes and just wrapped my arms around her. Even though i'm upset with her, I'm so in love with her and all I want to do is take care of her and I just have to keep reminding myself that it's not over forever. Although it was my decision it's still killing me.

"I love you." she whispered.

"I love you so much scar. I love you more everyday and i'll never stop." I said kissing her head.

A/n-

sorry guys... but like this story needed something to make it interesting, I don't want to just make it all lovey dovey the whole time yk? yes its a romance but hopefully yk what i mean.. it just needed some type of drama or situation in my opinion. but thank you so much for almost 6k reads:) and thank you for voting. i hope you're all doing well:)