"Be at peace with fate and remain happy for the rest of your life or contemplate and suffer the weight of the losses"
A wise and rational person would be able to do that, not that I am not one but being at peace with what has happened in my life takes time.
Not that it was that much of a traumatic experience, I just couldn't properly comprehend and adjust to the so called "bad things".
Getting a bad grade takes a few days of belittling myself before I could come to terms that I should study smarter for the next semester.
Disappointing people would cause me to resent and mock myself for how incompetent I am and after then I would be able to accept that, as a human, we make mistakes as part of our lives. No one is saved from being in the wrong. It is an unavoidable lesson.
Losing a friend, a partner, frustrates me into thinking, I am just too much to be handled or loved. I have said so many mean things to myself across the mirror. Mean things that I wouldn't even say to my enemies. Mean things that if little me was to listen, he would be in tears. Because I was in tears. But then, losing is also a part of life. One could say, we are fated to lose.
And slowly, I am now able to pull the chair for Lady of Fates, and sit right across her, stare at her eyes as she shows me the contents of what I would come across later in Life, how within every rock bottom in my life, a glimmer, a ray of hope comes to greet me once in a while to help me pick up the pieces of myself that I've dropped during the storm. And by the end of the day, I would shake the her hands and eagerly wait for the next time I would be meeting her.
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where dreams go
PoetryA list of short stories that I come cross in my life that I had to romanticize and write about
