COURTSIDE (BoyXBoy)

twelve

Malik

Why did I do that? Why the hell did I do that? Guys don't just go around kissing other guys on the forehead. I mean sure we hug and occasionally slap each other on the butt, but that's only for sporting events. What guys don't do is embrace their male friends and kiss them on the forehead. This thing has been plaguing my mind since I did it, and considering it's now Monday it's officially bothered me for more than 24 hrs. God I'm so stupid Austin must think I'm so weird now. I still don't even know why I did it? I mean I wanted to, but why did I want to I'm not suppose to want to.

I contemplate these thoughts as I walk down the hallway. I spotted Austin talking to Christian. That's the other thing I don't understand what's with me and my uncharacteristic dislike for the guy. Every time I see him around Austin I just wanna punch him. What also bothers me are the rumors about him and Austin being a couple. I mean I don't think they are seeing as Austin said he's never kissed anyone, but maybe they just haven't gotten there yet. I mean it's none of my business and I shouldn't be as pressed about it as I am, but I honestly can't help it.

"Hey Malik." Austin says to me snapping me out of my trance. I have absolutely no idea when or how but I seemed to have just walked right up to him in my daze.

"Hey Austin how was your Sunday?" I asked causally trying to be as composed as possible.

"Pretty uneventful did some homework made some cupcakes." He shrugged causally.

"Sounds a little eventful to me." I replied.

"Dude you have to try one of these cupcakes they're amazing." Christian says to me.

"I'm sure they are." I said through closed teeth.

"I actually made one specially for you." Austin says to me nervously. God please don't do this to me he's so cute.

He reaches into his locker and pulls out a container with an assortment of cupcakes all frosted in different colors. He picks one out and hands it to me. A cupcake with white frosting and the number 21 written on it in red frosting.

"It matches your basketball Jersey." He says to me. Looking up at me with is bright blue eyes.

"Wow thanks that's so thoughtful of you." I say to him genuinely.

"Well I couldn't not think of you when I was making them." He says blushing.
I have to get out of here!

"Well I'm definitely gonna have this at lunch. Thanks again Austin I really appreciate it." I say before walking down the hall to go find my friends.
Honestly I couldn't stand there around him for another second not while this overwhelming urge to do something that I couldn't come back from was eating at me. I think I'm slowly becoming aware of what's happening but I can't quite bring myself to accept it.

So here I was at the beginning of lunch period in the empty gym making out with some girl that I didn't quite get the name of, and I felt absolutely nothing. Well no I did feel something disgust. Not at her I mean she was doing well enough. I was disgusted at myself for what I was doing, and knowing why I was doing it only made it feel worse. When the girl attempted to grab onto my fully flaccid area was when I knew I had to end this so I pulled her off me.

"Listen I'm sorry you're great but this was a mistake." I said I really didn't get the time to come up with a better rejection.

" Oh umm okay sorry, did I do something wrong?" She questions. She looked really sad

" I'm sorry it really isn't you it's me." I replied. Yeah really didn't think that one through.

" I've heard that before. Look it's fine it was silly of me to think that you of all people would really go for me."  Before I could even say anything she walked away. Now I feel awful.