Colors and Life / Soviet x Reich

Chapter 9

Soviet I can still remember the promise you made to me seven years ago.

I and Soviet had a picnic meeting. We wanted to eat together and watch the stars. "Get da Prinz auf a Verabredung mit seim Liebhober? (Is the prince going on a date with his lover?)", Lukas annoyed me again. I answer him calmly: "Joa! Host du eigentlich an Liebhober? (Yes! Do you actually have a lover?)" "Na! I bin ned so bled und verliab me in irgend an Typen! (No! I'm not that stupid and fall in love with some guy!)", he claimed. "Des wer ma scho seng! (We'll see!)", I said before I ran out of the house with my basket full of food. I went to the pond where we met every day.

Soviet Union wasn't there yet, so I prepared everything in advance. I put a large blanket on the grass and sat on it. I put the food on the blanket and lay down to wait for Soviet. I watched the clouds above me and felt myself getting more and more tired. I was slowly getting tired. When I thought I was going to sleep, someone kissed my lips. I opened my eyes and saw Soviet sitting there. He held out his hand and helped me up. I immediately wrapped my arms around him and snuggled up against him. Shortly afterwards we had a bite to eat and talked. We told each other stories and made jokes.

Watching the stars was wonderful and we even saw shooting stars again and again, to which we gave our wishes. "Reich?", asked Soviet, "What if we would promise each other, if we are torn apart, that we will meet again here in exactly 89 moons? We will meet here to show that we will never forget each other and still love each other." I thought the idea was fantastic. "With pleasure, because I already know that we don't have to prove the whole thing, because I love you with all my heart and I would never forget you and the same applies to you.", I said happily. "That's exactly how I see it, but still this promise would be nice.", he said.

I hope he keeps his promise and will come to me. Maybe I think too much about the past. I would like to see how Soviet is doing again before I fall asleep. I slowly get up from the floor and stretch. It is sometimes a bit uncomfortable to sleep on the stones, but I can't steal anything as big as a mattress. I'm going out of my little cave. The moonlight illuminates the world around me. I slowly spread my wings. I raise my wings in the air and jump off the ground. I push the air down with my wings and gradually rise into the air. Below me are villages, forests, fields and streams.

Seeing the world from up here is still like a dream for me every time. I really like these wings. I keep flying higher and higher. I fly over hills and mountains. I arrived. It is a valley and in the middle of the valley is a hill on which the castle stands. The castle was impressive and large. I slowly glide towards the balcony and land on the railing. I look through the window and see Soviet sleeping next to his wife. His face looks so relaxed and calm. Slowly the blanket rises through his deep breaths. Soviet Union is surely happy without me. What if I would ruin him his wonderful life, if I would just show up out of nowhere?

I'm getting sad and jealous again. How could they have stolen everything from me? I have no rights, no freedom, no home, no friends, no happiness, even my great love is no longer with me. All I have left are unhappiness, memories and my life, but I don't want that, not even my life, if I can't be with the one I love with all my heart. I turn around and jump off the balcony. I spread my wings and fly back to my cave. I look back one more time and I am overwhelmed by sadness again. I want to be with Soviet again, I want to cuddle up to him and whisper to him that I love him.

Why is life just so unfair to me? I fly over the mountains and back into the valley in which I live. Why don't I just sneak into the castle? Actually, I could try and see how good he is without me. The main thing is that I can be close to him! But what if that's right about the wings and I really ruin his life? It's worth a try! But what if that attempt cost him his life? Then I have no more sense of existence or should I play the villain who just kills everyone because of my curse? No, I can't and don't want to hurt anyone, but I still want revenge on my ones so called 'family'!

They deserve to pay for what they did to me! But I can't do anything to them either. Going back to the idea from earlier. What if I try to get in through my art? I think I am too bad at drawing for that. What if I steal something and pretend to be looking for it? No, way too obvious and I'm not that good at stealing. What about singing? How do I get such an idea? I'm even worse at singing or playing an instrument. I have arrived at my cave. I slowly prepare to land. After landing, I go into the cave where I sit on the floor.

I just came up with a plan. What if I take a strong magic potion to make me look human, then steal food in town for a while and get caught near the castle. Maybe I'll be taken to Soviet Union and I'll tell him I need food. Then I can only hope that I can stay with him at the castle. Stupid plan, but the best plan I have. I'll start tomorrow, but it's the middle of the night now. I lie down on the floor and wrap my wings around me, as they were warm and cuddly and put my head on my arm as a pillow. I look at my wings one last time before blowing out the candles with a flap of my wings. Are my wings really a curse?