Colors and Life / Soviet x Reich

Chapter 7

I slowly stopped shaking and slowly let go of him after I had calmed down enough. I carefully put my foot on the ground and gradually let go of Soviet Union, as I was slowly becoming more certain that nothing would eat me. Soviet still had his arms around me, making sure I still felt safe. I was standing on the bottom with water up to my shoulders and since I didn't move that much, it felt very cold to me. I felt a slight pressure on my cheek. Soviet Union kissed my cheek briefly. "My brave Reich.", he whispered.

I felt really good from it. He made me so happy. I gave him a hug and kissed his cheek as well. He gave me his beautiful smile and hugged me tightly. It made me feel warmer again. I let go of him and started swimming. I swam around him, then he swam with me. At some point we had a water fight and watched the animals in the pond until I got a bite from a Brem. Brem was the Bavarian name for a blood-sucking insect, actually called horsefly, in German it sounded too much like part of a car to me. Horsefly bites were worse than mosquito bites and they usually bit horses after what I heard about them and from their name.

Soviet grabbed something against the bite while I kept diving under in the pond so that it couldn't bite me again. Soviet Union came with towels and a cream for the bite. Then I ran out of the water to him and he put towels around me. After he was sure I wouldn't be cold, he took care of the itchy and painful bite. Then he put a towel around himself and we sat on the forest ground. I sat on his lap again and he kissed and cuddled with me.

All of these memories make me so sad. I miss him so much. I love him and would love to be with him. But what if he pushed me away like my family? Does he still love me or has he forgotten me? Why didn't he look for me? Why do I even want to see him again? Why am I still in love with him? Do I even want to be in love with him? Why am i afraid? Why is everything so difficult and so complicated? Soviet tell me was our love real? Is our love one-sided? Have you forgotten me already? Do you miss me? Are you going to hurt me? Should I even love you? Why couldn't I just burn to death in the flames?!

Half a moon had passed and I and Soviet were a couple. I know we hadn't spent that much time together, but we love each other so I didn't care. Lukas kept making fun of me because I loved a boy, but he could turn anything I made into a joke. Soviet and I stayed overnight together again and again and helping each other with work. We were together for most of the day. We would also be guaranteed to have enough money at the end of the moon to be able to live together. I was looking forward to it so much. We hardly thought of our families anymore, except when we made fun of them.

I was lying next to Soviet Union and was slowly waking up because he had kissed me. He smiled warmly at me and kissed me again. However, I was still tired as we had played cards all evening. He had won almost every round, which made me laugh the whole time. How could he have such a lucky streak? The total of points was 125 to my 19 points at the end. Normally I was the king of card and board games, but I lost heavily against Soviet Union. Sometimes I could lose too, and with Soviet I didn't mind anyway and rather made me laugh. I rubbed the sleep from my eyes.

Then I asked him: "What time is it?" "It's 10 o'clock," he replied. It was way too early. I'm guaranteed not to get up now. Then I snuggled up to him again so that I had a comfortable position and stayed where I was. Soviet kissed me again. He couldn't even let me sleep. I am tired. "Stand up, you sleepyhead.", he annoyed me. I grumbled: "My head hurts and it's too early to get up!" My head always hurts when my body thinks I'm not getting enough sleep. Thereupon Soviet left me in peace and lay down next to me a little more. Slowly I was getting tired again, but I couldn't fall asleep any more.

Why do I have to remember something like this? It's been six years. Soviet why didn't you look for me? I've live near the pond in the area of your empire for four years. I've lived here ever since I ran away and escaped death.