Colors and Life / Soviet x Reich

Chapter 15

I've been in my bed for half an eternity trying to stay awake. I decide to go to the library and borrow a few books. I quickly drink the light transformation potion, put something on and put a blanket over myself so that my wings cannot be seen. Why should anyone be awake at this time of the day, except for the guards who are only on the top floor and outside. I unlock the door and go downstairs. I open the library door and search the shelves for books that interest me. I found two books. One book was a love story and the other was about wings. I'm just leaving the library when I bump into something.

I fall backwards, but something or someone can still catch me with his or her hands. I slowly get up again and say thank him or her: "Thank you very much!" "You're welcome!", says a familiar voice, it is Soviet. What is he doing here in the middle of the night? I quickly pull the covers over myself a little more and am just about to pick up the books, but Soviet Union gets ahead of me and gives me the books. "Thank you again!", I thank him again. "What are you doing here anyway, in the middle of the night?", he asks me. Should I lie to him? Why should I lie to him? I'll just tell him the truth: "I had a nightmare and I'm trying to stay awake because I don't want to go through something like this again."

"The same is also the case with me. I often have nightmares these days and somehow I die in each of them.", says Soviet. Is that a coincidence? I have the same I inform him: "It's the same with me!" "Really?", He asks me. I answer him: "Yes!" "Can we take a walk before we go back to our rooms and read?" He offers me. I can't say 'no' to something like that. "With pleasure!", I answer a little happier. We walk out of the library together and I put the books in a corner before I run to him and take him outside to my left. It's quite fresh, which makes me snuggle up in the blanket even more.

"Have you ever fallen in love with someone?", Soviet asks me. What should I tell him? I answer him with a slight stutter: "Y-yes, I think so and you?" He hangs his head a little before answering: "Me too, b-but I don't like to talk about it." I shouldn't have asked! Why did I ask him? "Have you ever thought that this might have something to do with your nightmares?", occurs to me out of nowhere. He looks at me with a questioning look. Soviet says: "I've thought of that before, but I didn't really see it as a reason. How did you come up with that?" "I think it could be the case with me, so I just thought it might be the same for you.", I tell him.

Headache again! My legs can no longer hold me and I get on my knees while holding my head with my hands. "Nick?!", Soviet Union sounds very worried about me. I hold myself over the floor with my hands. But I also lose my strength in my arms and almost fall if Soviet Union doesn't catch me. He puts the blanket around me a little more. Please don't spot my wings. I am lifted up by him so that I am in his arms. Soviet looks so worried. "What is wrong?", he asks me, very worried. "J-Just h-headache.", I answer him stuttering because of the pain.

Can a headache kill you? In any case, I think I need a lot more rest from the potions than I thought, because these potions can definitely kill you. I feel very weak. My body lets loose completely. I feel that he is very afraid for me. If life wanted me to die, I wouldn't have got my sharp teeth five years ago. I know I won't die because I haven't had enough of the potion to do it. The amount that would kill me would be 8 sips in half a day. Soviet thinks about what to do. "T-Take me to my r-room, I have something a-against it.", I stutter. I'm lying to him again.

"Are you sure?" He asks me worried. I nod in response. My strength is slowly coming back as Soviet runs inside and goes to my room. He sets me down on the bed. I reach for my bedside table and pull out the strong transformation potion. After taking a sip, I put the potion back and when I notice my wings are gone, I cover myself up again. "I'll stay here if you don't mind.", says Soviet Union and sits down on the bed. I say weakly: "D-Do what you want my e-emperor." I snuggle up in the blanket and close my eyes. I have to sleep so I don't have to stand the pain anymore.

It takes a while, but somehow I fell asleep. I woke up to the light in the room and felt warmth around me. I snuggle up to the heat source. I feel breaths behind me and when I turn around, Soviet Union is behind me and puts his arm around me. What should I do now? Should I wake him up, continue enjoying this, or go away so he doesn't know about it. I decide to sneak away. It feels so good, but it's a bad idea to stay here. Whether he still loves me or not, I can't tell him yet, I'm just not ready yet. I free myself from his grip and leave the room. I go to the library because the books are on the way there.

I take my books and am about to go outside when Afghanistan grabs my arm and pulls me so that she kisses me on the lips. It goes too far, but what should I do? After the unwanted kiss, she pulls me closer to her. "I've never seen a beauty like you before~", she says. God is she getting on my nerves! I am the opposite of beautiful, whether as a Countryhuman or as a human. She takes the books away from me and pushes me against the wall again. Can she just leave me alone? I don't like that at all! She licks my neck and runs her hands over my body. That is incredibly uncomfortable! I can't stand this!

"Afghanistan, can you stop? I don't like that at all!", I make it clear to her, because she is going more than just too far. She puts a finger on my lips and says: "You won't be so uncomfortable any more~" I hate it when she talks like that. When she rubs her hand between my legs, I've had more than enough of it. I push her away from me and make myself big. Filled with anger, I make it clear to her: "I don't care if you belong to the royal family or not, but that's my body! The only one I belong to is myself and I can't stand it when you touch me! I want you to stop coming too close to me and leave me alone!"

The guards run towards me, while Afghanistan is still speechless and a little scared. I walk away from her, but the guards grab my arms. Afghanistan says something else to the guards, but I no longer listen. I don't want to hear her anymore. I don't care what she says to the guards because I feel better since I gave her my opinion. The guards are taking me away. We're going to the part of the castle where Soviet told me yesterday not to go there. I am taken there and see that everything is quite dark in that part of the building. Some doors can be seen. What is this? Hopefully these aren't cells.

I'm thrown in one of the rooms. It's cells! Panic and fear immediately flow through me again, while memories of the last time I was in a cell shoot through me again. My panic just keeps getting worse. I knock on the door, but nothing brings anything. I don't even have a potion or anything else with me. I shouldn't have yelled at her! I shouldn't have defended myself! What will they do with me now? Starve me? Hang me? Or even burn?! I'm so scared that I yell until my throat hurts so much I can't say another word. I squeeze myself into a corner and cry with fear. Why am I so stupid?!