Behind Closed Doors

Chapter 9

"Hello?" I asked, trying to sound like I had no clue who was calling.

"Hey Kanji! How was the road trip so far?" He sounded happy, which was a good sign.

"It was good! Just had a bad nightmare when I fell asleep, but overall tiring and good." Hearing his voice soothed me. My nerves had calmed down and I was fully confident that nothing bad was going to happen.

"We'll that's great Kanjibear! But what was the dream about? You don't have to tell me though, I'll completely understand." He tried sounding like a little kid, because he knew that was the only way that I'll even considering telling him anything. What can I say? His little kid voice was absolutely adorable! But I wasn't gonna let that make me spill so easily.

I laughed "Nah it's nothing. Just a silly little nightmare is all."

More like the most terrifying nightmare I've ever had. It just felt so realistic, and that's what made it worse.

"Darn, well alrighty then." He laughed.

There was an awkward little pause, and then I spoke up.

"So Koda, what was it that you had to tell me earlier?"

He cleared his throat. "Oh yea, well what I had to tell you was," he paused for a moment, and cleared his throat once again.

Oh God, my dream is seriously becoming real.

"Yes?" I was tired of waiting so I just came right out and said "for God's sake Koda just please tell me! I've been anxious all day and I'm too tired right now, so just tell me now!"

"Damn alright chill!" He sounded a bit annoyed but I really couldn't care less. I just needed to know.

"You know Dani's pregnant, right? Well, I just found out that I'm not the father of this baby, and that there was no possibility of me being he father, since she was already four months pregnant, and we only had sex about two months ago." He paused, his voice sounding a bit weaker. "I ended up breaking up with her and after I did, she called me a bastard and went on about how many guys she slept with while she was with me. It broke my heart Kanji. But it made me realize something."

I was shocked, yet satisfied. He finally got to see how much of a bitch she really was. And not to mention a huge slut. I still had to show some sympathy though, after all, he is my best friend.

"Koda, I'm so sorry. Not to sound like a bad friend or anything, but that's why I went off on her that one day. I just thought it would help you see why I didn't like her, but it obviously didn't. It was her pregnancy that helped."

He did one of those little sad chuckles. "Yeah."

"So, what did it make you realize?" I was extremely curious now. Could it be what I thought it was? Psh yeah right. There's no way in a million years it could be what I think it is.

"Oh," he chuckled again, this time kind of nervously. "It made me reali-..." His voice had abruptly stopped. What happened?

"Koda? Hello? Realized what?!" No response. I checked my phone. Battery dead. Fuck!

I quickly searched through my carry on, only to find that I had left my charger in my mom's purse. I ran out of my hotel room and knocked on my parents hotel room door. My dad sleepily opened the door. I pushed right past him, in search of my mom's purse.

"Kanji, what the hell are you doing?" My dad asked, sounding extremely pissed.

"Nothing I just needed to find my charger that's all." Almost instantly I had found what I was looking for.

I ran out the door and whisper-yelled goodnight to my dad. All he did was moan.

"Fuck, Koda's gonna think I hung up on him or something!" I was talking to myself like I always did when I got nervous. Once I slammed my door shut, I looked all over the wall for a plug outlet.

"Aha! Found you bitch!" I said as I plugged my charger into the wall. Oh sweet heavens. Now sadly I have to wait a while before it charges. Oh dear God, please let it charge fast! 

I waited for what seemed like hours. This was literally the longest time I've ever waited for anything. And people said that iPhones charge quick. HAH. It must've seemed longer since I had something that was very important to me waiting. It was important to me anyways.

I desperatly waited until I saw the light on my phone turn on. 

FINALLY! 

I quickly grabbed my phone, still being cautious of leaving it on the charger cord, and texted Koda.

The message read: "Hey Koda! I'm sooo desperatley sorry! My phone died and it took me a while to find my charger! Again I'm incredibly sorry! :("

It took about five minutes until he finally replied. He said

"Hahaha its totally ok(: I understand! But I can't talk anymore, momma getting mad at me for using the phone this late. :/ I'll call or text you whenever I can though."

 Great, just GREAT. Nothing seems to be working out the way I had hoped. It really sucks. 

I started texting back to him, but then something in my head was telling me to just stop, and leave it alone.

I set my phone down, went to the bathroom and got ready for bed. I kept thinking about all the possible things that he could've said. Maybe its that he's secretly in love with me, or that he just doesnt see us as friends anymore? 

"Stop it Kanji!" I said, while hitting my head. "I'm only making worse by thinking!" 

I finally got out of the bathroom and tried my best to relax, which is extremely difficult to do when you've just been informed that the guy you're in love with had just broken up with his girlfriend.

I closed my eyes, and took some deep breaths to help me relax. It did actually help me which was awsome. But just as soon as I was in full relaxation mode, I had recieved a text.

I jumped for my phone, thinking it was Koda. 

It just turned out to be my dad saying "Kanji, remember you have to wake up early so we can get to your aunt's house. Set an alarm for four-thirty A.M. OK? Goodnight and love you"

I was too lazy to actually read and reply to it so I threw it back on the nightstand. I didn't want to talk to anyone right now, not even my own father. I just wasn't happy and extremely tired.

A tear had slipped out of my eye. This time, It was strange to me but I didn't care. I just wanted some sleep. 

At least thats the only good thing I can get after such a long ass day.

I smiled while attempting to sleep and cry at the same time. Again, very strange to me but I just did not care at all.

Finally the tears went away and I finally fell asleep, happy.

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Wow... tough night for Kanji right? But it will all get better soon(: It's all just a matter of time! and sorry for not writing earlier. iPod and phone was taken away and I didnt have time to write on my laptop, until today!

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