overdramatic?.....

just- why is it funny?.

Venting with my friends isn't really a pleasant
Thing to do sometimes.
Well. I'm grateful.. They're... Trying?..
I think. I don't wanna assume it.
I know they just don't know how to comfort someone.

So I shouldn't really judge them right?.

It's just unfair sometimes.
And it's not funny.. I mean.. I know you don't wanna say anything but.. That's just.. A wrong thing to say. I'm sorry.

Everytime. I vent. Or say anything that happen, or upsetting. Or ANYTHING. Negative.

Like when I said I got !S!A! (Sexual assaulted.) They'll respond with a nonchalant "LOL" or a fucking "so that's why your a bit gay LOL"

I got r@ped by a girl when I was 5. A girl that's literally 4 years older then me.

That doesn't make it funny. If we're the same gender... I was uncomfortable. And was comfortable enough to tell them. And they just broke it.

It's been happening for a a year and a half months now. I don't think I'll ever ask them to even vent on them about those anymore..

Being concerned by them. They'll just fucking threaten me. Like, when I checked my phone and tell them "y'all fr need to sleep" they'll say threatening things to fucking kill me and say to just make me GO TO FUCKING SLEEP.

Here's the deal. Yea. They're sensitive too. But that doesn't make the people around them NOT sensitive. Everything I say they start hanging up on me. Even calling me racist. For what? BECAUSE I SAID A OBVIOUS JOKE ABOUT YOUR CLOTHES?

"Lol, are you going to a funeral"

When they were going to the mall with 'A' all full black.

They called me racist, even more then that.
A, even called her fucking cousin to save her ass and defend her. While ganging up on me.

.....

After rhoxxy left the friend group. Everything changed. Yes. Rhoxxy was an ass to Sammy and the others sometimes. But they literally said they respect her for that. Even admired her for that.

But I guess it's right. Rhoxxy does call us backstabbers when she was being a back stabber too..

But everything changed after rhoxxy left.
I'm the only one that's NOT a cousin of the two of my friends now.

And I feel as if I'm just a burden for. Well. Everyone of them at this point. For a reason.
And I don't think I wanna say it yet.

I'm the reason the friendship went apart even.

So this is all basically my fault at this point.

Well. I deserve it.?.

Maybe.

I don't know anymore.

Goodnight y'all, have a nice sleep.

Take care :)).