Tale of Silent Longing

32 | Confession of love

On hearing this sudden confession from her, jahaan's world seemed to have stopped.
Tanya spoke her heart out and jahaan couldn't figure things out.

"What... what did you say? Ever since you have seen me..." jahaan stammered.

"Yes, from day one, right from the moment I set my eyes on you for the first time. But you never looked at me with love. You always kept ignoring me. On the first day of college, l looked for you everywhere but when I found you in my class, you refused to even know me. You were always rude and nasty. You even gave my love letter to Brenda. Did you ever care? You have always scolded me in front of everyone. But you know what? I have gradually got used to it," tanya expressed.

Jahaan was standing there like a statue. He was realizing a lot of things while listening to her. She finally let him go and turned her back towards him.

"When even Reeva could sense my love for you, why couldn't you? You are lying" she said while crying.

"If whatever you have just said is true, then you have misunderstood me completely. It's not that I scolded you on purpose but whenever I did so, I did it for your good" Jahaan mumbled in his head.

He put his hand on her shoulder and spoke softly, " tanya, you are not in your senses right now".

"Yeah, I know I am drunk. I also know that you don't love me. And I even know that you like Reeva . I know everything" tanya said while turning towards him.

"But yet, I will speak my heart out because I know tomorrow morning when I will wake up, I won't remember anything that I said tonight. So, even if you don't reciprocate the feelings, I still want to tell you that I love you a lot. I love you, Jahaan," She confessions emotionally.

Tanya's words made Jahaan go numb for a moment. He stood there speechless and kept looking at tanya 's bloodshot eyes filled with tears. He was astonished by the revelation. He had sensed that tanya had a liking for him, however, never in his dream he had thought that Tanya's feelings would be so strong.

Tanya waited for his answer for some time and then spoke with a laugh, "I knew it; you are never going to like a girl like me. After all, I don't match up to your standards. I think I am way too drunk. I should sleep." She looked away and started walking towards the bed.

She barely managed to take a few steps when Jahaan called out, " tanya , you just said that tomorrow morning, you are not going to remember anything about tonight. Let's see how true your words are". Saying this, he grabbed her wrist, pulled her towards himself, and held her by her waist. Before she could understand anything, Jahaan held tanya's face, lifted it, and kissed her on her lips.

She was not in a state to even make sense of why he did what he did. She just knew he was kissing her. Without thinking of anything else, she closed her eyes and started kissing him back.

Both of them were lost in the moment. Although this was not the first time they were kissing but this time, it was neither a mistake nor an accident. It was a kiss filled with emotion and passion. A whiff of alcohol was exchanged between them.

Jahaan rested both his hands on her waist.
She placed her head on his chest again and started drifting off to sleep.

" tanya ! Tanya !" Jahaan shook her slightly to wake her up. He realized that she was sleepy. He lifted her and walked towards the bed.
After putting her on the bed, he removed her sandals and pulled the sheet on her.

He then walked to the other side of the bed, put his phone on charge, and sat on the bed.

While removing his shoes, he thought to himself, "Why did I do that? Why couldn't l control myself? This was not the first time that a woman confessed her feelings for me but why tonight when tanya was speaking her heart out, my heart started beating fast?" He kept gazing at her.

After a while, Jahaan quietly got into the blanket and laid a little away from tanya . Even though he was on the bed, he could not fall asleep.

A lot of questions were reverberating in his mind. The truth was Jahan already knew tanya liked him but he never thought her feelings were something like love; so strong and serious. Her love confession made him feel very strange.

Jahaan shut his eyes and tried to sleep but suddenly, tanya kept her leg and an arm around Jahaan and placed her head on his chest once again. She mumbled in a sleepy voice, "I told you, I like it this way".

He tried to move her away but she stayed still.
He got a little frustrated and muttered, "Oh God! This girl! I will make sure she never gets drunk again".

Soon even Jahaan dozed off .

The next morning, Mrs. Mehta headed towards Jahaan's room. She knew everyone must have slept late last night because of the party.

So, instead of waking him early, she went towards his room a little late. She knocked at his door and ring the bell for a long time but nobody answered. She called him up on his phone but he didn't pick it up either.

Mrs. Mehta then called up Jordan , tanya , and Illahi too, but none of them answered the calls. At last, she called up Reeva .

Reeva came back to her room and slept late last night. In the morning, she woke up with a headache.

When her phone rang, she answered it without looking at the screen. After Mrs. Mehta asked her about everyone's whereabouts, she replied, "Mrs. Mehta , the last time I saw all of them was at the party last night. I came back to my room pretty early because I felt a little dizzy."

"Alright. Do one thing, go to the reception and fetch the extra key to Jahaan's room. I don't know why he is not opening the door. I am really worried now" Mrs. Mehta requested.

Reeva agreed and soon went downstairs to the reception to get the keys.