oK guys so you see i was busy doing absolutely nothing and i totally didnt forget this story existed and IM ALIVE AGAIN HEHEHEHEHEHEHHE ok have fun with a new chapter (this is the 2nd last chapter)
Ruis POV
he jumped. he actually jumped.
i started crying.
i texted everyone.
i rushed to Nenes class to get the presents we were supposed to give her and Emu
...
i got them.
i cried more.
sorry tsukasa.
sorry for everything i did to you
...
i went to Nenes dorm and knocked quickly, i think she already received the text earlier
"Hm? what is it? also, the Tsukasa thing was a joke, right? caught me off guard lmao" Nene joked
"What? It wasnt a joke! He died in front of my eyes!" I shouted, was it her fault or mine..?
"WHAT?!" Nene shouted
"Take the gift from him, please. And take Emus one too to give to her when you two meet up, i already texted Emu. Bye. Give the other one to Saki, if you can."
"I-" Nene tried to speak but i ran away already
i cried and ran back to my dorm
akito is here
"Hey, did you get my text? WHY ARE YOU SO CALM?????" i shouted at Akito
"Hm? nobody was there when i went to the roof so i just assumed it was a joke."
oh right, i was running back as fast as i could
"NO ITS NOT A JOKE? WHAT IS THIS WORLD"
"WHAT??? i thought it was like another prank on Tsukasa?!!!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?" Akito said "Is that why he gave me a gift???"
i sighed "ill- ill be in my room, i guess" i said
i locked the door
i cried
i cried so loudly
im so sorry Tsukasa
i like you too, Tsukasa
i realise now
i liked you
i liked you for so long
i liked you for such a long time
too bad for me
i hugged the plushie he gave me
i kept crying
i kept crying
i kept crying
i turned on my phone
i clicked on tiktok
help me distract myself
...
nothing happened
im still thinking of tsukasa
i cant do anything
i wonder if this couldve been avoided
...
...
...
isnt it quite sad
only a memory of him will remain
sorry tsukasa
i love you
i like you
wasnt i the one who came up with the idea to bully him anyway
its my fault
its my fault
its my fault
its my fault
its my fault
sorry.
im sorry.
so sorry.
i got up and entered tsukasas room. what a mess. there was even a bloodied blade, he was cutting himself? why didnt i notice earlier... thats why he always wears sleeves??? i looked around. nothing too interesting. i saw the picture of the whole wonderlands x showtime group tsukasa tried giving us to make up for it when he went to nenes house. i wish i didnt make him leave immediately.
i cried
im sorry
Word count: 465-ish
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