Tsukasas POV
its sunday. im going to apologise to Nene today. I will try to make it up to them by putting a picture of all of us in a frame and giving it to her. I hope she forgives me.
i bought a nice picture frame and put the picture in.
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its kinda rainy. i hope it doesnt get worse.
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im here. and im absolutely soaked too. im too scared to knock. what if she doesnt forgive me? it also doesnt help that im next to Ruis house since theyre neighbors. i feel like dying. perhaps i should. wait- you have to apologise first. i put on my "happy" face and knocked. i feel like all the life immediately drained from my body when my hand touched the door. im scared. im scared of facing reality. im a coward. im a useless coward. nobody likes me. i will never be a-
the door opened
shit
WHY IS RUI HERE
"why are you here, Tsukasa." he said coldly. his eyes clearly said 'why is this guy here i hate him'
i smiled a little, trying not to break down "i came to apologise and i wanted to-"
i was cut off
"go away." rui said. he didnt even care about anything.
theres more people in the house
"huh? is Tsukasa here, Rui?"
That was Emu
WHATS EMU DOING HERE TOO
"why is Tsukasa here?" that was Nene. theyre having a whole ass meet up
"I wanted to-"
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"dunno. lets just continue." rui said before slamming the door shut and making sure to lock the door.
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ill just leave the picture by the doorstep. lets go back
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still rainy
i wished to be strong, whered that go?
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still rainy
my futile efforts were all washed away in the blink of an eye
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im back home. im still soaked. it rained so hard
"SAKI IM BACKK" i shouted while going to my room.
the first thing on my mind was my knife
i picked it up
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i cut myself 7 times.
its monday tomorrow. i want to die. to make it worse, the dorms are being announced. im scared. i want to be with Akito. hes the only one that i can talk to. and Toya too
its 6pm. i should probably shower
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i finished showing. its around 6:20 or so. i should sleep then. im not that hungry anyway.
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i cant sleep. i keep thinking about rui. i still dont know if i like him or not. but he hates me either way. its pointless.
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i cried on my pillow for like 30 minutes
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Word count: 444
yall sorry for taking so long :sob:
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