Painfully yours

Past.

As Arya wakes up in the morning, she finds her face still nestled against Ariana's breast, a lingering sense of warmth and intimacy surrounding her. She faintly remembers the events of last night when Ariana provided her with comfort and support during a surge of overwhelming emotions. In that vulnerable moment, Arya opened up to Ariana about the reasons behind her panic attack, finding solace in Ariana's compassionate presence.

However, as Arya becomes more aware of her surroundings, a tinge of guilt starts to wash over her. She realizes that not only did Ariana have to take her home last night, but she also helped her with her art project and stayed by her side throughout the night to help her heal. The weight of the problems she dropped on Ariana's shoulders becomes evident, and Arya feels remorse for burdening her with so much.

Arya begins to feel like a constant source of trouble and inconvenience for Ariana. The thought of being a burden weighs heavily on her, leading her to believe that perhaps she should try not to bother Ariana so much. She starts to withdraw, feeling like she barely speaks or contributes to their interactions. The fear of becoming too reliant on Ariana and impeding on her own life starts to take hold.

In this complex mix of emotions, Arya experiences a sense of gratitude for Ariana's unwavering support, but also a deep desire to not impose further on her. She contemplates ways to be more independent and self-sufficient, longing to alleviate the feeling of being a burden on Ariana's shoulders.

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Arya's P.O.V.

I had retracted from the loving hold of Ariana and felt my hair untangle through her fingers as I got up .I sat up facing the window away from her.

What did I do ?

This is so inappropriate for me to just snuggle inside a princess and keep her body from moving through the night. I've just so shamelessly, unloaded my trauma and my liabilities on her. And yet she didn't say I've crossed my limit. I hadn't been with her 24 hrs and I must have hit her nerve. She's probably losing patience with me.

"What's bothering you now Arya?" Her sweet voice broke the silence. I turned around and looked at her .

"Im sorry for overstepping". I said looking at her laid in the same position. Her arm was lightly blue against her red undertone skin. I weighed down her arm all night! Guilty consumed me. Was she still lying down unable to move through the pain? I was worried .

What did I do ?

Arya's upset feelings deepen as she reflects on the burden she feels she has placed on Ariana. She berates herself for shamelessly unloading her problems onto Ariana, even though they had only known each other for a short period of time. Additionally, when Arya notices the light blueish mark on Ariana's hand where she had laid her head all night, her sadness and guilt intensify. She becomes extremely sorry for not asking for permission and worries that she may have caused Ariana pain or discomfort.

Arya's feelings of guilt and nervousness consume her, making her question her actions and the impact they may have had on Ariana. She becomes hyper-aware of her actions, fearing that she may have made Ariana uncomfortable by quickly getting up and out of her embrace. Arya's aversion to sleeping in Ariana's arms adds to her internal conflict, as she questions her own preferences and whether they may have hurt Ariana's feelings.

On the other hand, Ariana, in contrast to Arya's worries, aches for Arya to return and seek comfort in her embrace once again. She longs for Arya to snuggle her face against her breast, as it would feel like completing a missing piece. Ariana's maternal instincts kick in, as she yearns to mother Arya and provide the care and affection she believes Arya needs in that moment.