Life after love.

Part 12

I can't keep doing this.

I'm having lunch with Savannah; I don't know why I told her what happened at Martha's Vineyards. I told her I've been home a few days; I've been calling Robert; he's not taking my calls.

Come on Pierre, Savannah said after taking a sip of wine, did I really think he would after I told Robert I fucked my ex-, I told her I didn't tell Robert I slept with James, she said more secrets and drama in my life. She asked me how many times I have slept with James since I've been back, I told her none and it won't happen again, she said knowing me it will happen, I minus well face it James is going to get me back with the dick.

I told her I'm not stupid to think that some dick will make me forget all that's happened, she said I need to be honest with myself the dick was good wasn't it. I told her that's all she thinks about, but after she said that I wouldn't dare move from this table my dick is hard as a rock.

I had to tell myself sex isn't enough to make me get back with James, Savannah said look over there isn't that Robert, I looked over my shoulder, and it's him with some other guy, he didn't waste any time finding someone to get with, men are dogs. Savannah said I do realize I said that out loud and I'm a man, I told her to shut up, she said I need to go over there and let Robert have it, I told her I don't do public displays. Besides after what I did to him what right do I have to say anything.

Savannah said so I fucked my ex-, she got up and I asked her where she's going, she said if I don't have the balls to tell that piece of shit off, she will, Savannah walked towards there table, I got up and walked over there too. I told her don't make a scene, she said too late, and told Robert he couldn't even wait a week to find some new ass, Robert told her if she must know he's a client, but it's none of her business nor mine.

We walked back to our table, I said why did she have to go over there, Savannah said because I wouldn't speak up for myself, at least we know he's not fucking anyone at least not yet, I better get my shit together. We finished lunch, and left, we walked right passed Robert's table he didn't even look up at me.

We left and I dropped Savannah off, and I headed to James's house to pick up the boys, when I got there James answered the door wearing some very tight thong swimming trunks showing me what I had in Martha's Vineyards. He has changed I could never get him to wear those, I told him I'm here to get the boys, he said there not here, Manny took them to kid's world he wasn't expecting me this early, I told him I'll just come back later he can call me when they get back.

James told me I'm welcome to stay, they shouldn't be very long, not unless I'm afraid of being alone with him, I told him I know what he did for a living and that never scared me so being alone with him won't scare me either.

James said good after all he's my husband, I said was, remember we're divorced, he said for now, James pulled his trunks down and stood in front of me, I asked him what he thinks he's doing. He said he wants to give me what I came here for, I told him I came here to get our son's not that, James stroked his manhood and it immediately stood at attention. I told him to please stop doing that, he said I know I want too.

I don't even remember going upstairs, but James is fucking me and I'm enjoying every minute of it, I flipped him over and now I'm riding all ten inches of his manhood, I moved in all kinds of directions, and I found myself coming without even touching myself, okay the man's dick is good.

James moved faster and deeper in me and I could feel his dick throbbing inside of me and I shot out another load all over his chest, I pulled up and told him this means nothing, and it won't happen again, James just smiled at me. There's a knock on the door, we heard PJ asked is his other daddy here, I told James to tell him I'm outside, he told PJ that, the boy asked James why his door is locked he wants to come in.

 I went into the bathroom and peeked through the door, James wiped his chest clean with my underwear, and he put on some regular trunks, and he opened the door, he said he didn't know it was locked he was changing so he could take a swim. I saw PJ looking around the room, he said oh he'll go and find me and left the room. I got dressed and came out of the bathroom, James is on the bed looking sexy as fuck, I told him he can't tell the twins anything, they will think we're getting back together, and we're not.

James said if I say so, but my actions in bed didn't say that, I told him like I said it won't happen again, and I left the room. I found the kids outside, PJ said he was looking for me all over the place, I said I was in the guesthouse waiting for them to get back, we have to go now.

James came out and said bye to the twins, he'll see them next weekend if it's alright with me, I said they can come, and we left, damn why did I let him fuck me, now he will think we can get back together.

(James)

I took a swim, when I got out of the pool Manny kept staring at me, I asked him is one of my balls out or something, he said not with those tight ass trunks, he said I've changed since I've been gone I never use to wear trunks like that, but anyway he was in the guesthouse and Pierre wasn't in there, could he have been in my bedroom, I just smiled.

Manny asked did we have sex, again I just smiled, he said I never told him what happened in Martha's Vineyards, I told him let's just say what happened here happened there too, and that's all I'm going to say.

Manny told me if I'm using sex to get Pierre back, I'm going about it wrong, do what I did to get him in the first place and win his trust back, like the twins he does want us back together. I asked him did the twins tell him that. He said yes, he called CJ and told him they have to get going, I hugged my boys and they left.

 Maybe Manny is on to something, I went into the house and ordered flowers for Pierre, I know it will take some time, but I'm going to get my man back.

(Pierre)

Before we went home, I stopped and got the twins some ice cream, I kept thinking about James, shit I got wet in my hole thinking about all the dick that man gave me, but I can't let him think he can win me over with just some good dick. Damn! am I hearing myself as if we can forget about the last year and how he hurt me going back to that life, how can I trust him again.

We got home and there's a box on the foyer table, the twins went upstairs, and I opened the box, it's flowers with a card saying I messed up, getting you in bed wasn't the answers to our problems, I will always love you and show you I can change signed James your one-day husband again.

Damn I messed up by letting him think we could have something again, but after that day I found myself going over James's house while the twins were at school and we made love in the old house in the woods, it was like nothing ever happened, but it did, and every time I would say this can't happen again it did. I have to ask myself do I want him as he is or move on.

 This went on for weeks, could I have my family back, or will James hurt me again, I have to come to terms rather I want this.