Life after love.

Part 13

A month and a day.

Savannah came over, she hung out with me for the afternoon, I told her what's been going on, and how it's been a month and Robert still won't take my calls, I wanted to apologize to him, I even had the twins call him, he did speak to them, but not me. She told me I minus well face it Robert doesn't want anything to do with me after I hurt him, I told her I can understand his hurt I felt the same way when James hurt me.

Savannah said speaking of James, are we getting back together or just fucking, I told her right now I'm just enjoying the sex and after we're finished, I just leave. She said I need to stop playing games it's not just me but the twins too and they want us to get back together, and if I'm not getting back with James tell him that.

I told her between her and I, I'm not sure what I want, sure the sex is great that's never been our problem it's James lying to me how can I trust him again.

If I trust him enough to have sex with him deep down, I trust him, Savannah said as she put her skirt on, she said she has to get home maybe we can have dinner soon, it's been a while since Devon has seen me. I told her just let me know when, she kissed me and left, I thought to myself am I playing games with James or fighting the inedible of getting back with him, or do I just keep things the way they are.

I called him and asked what's he doing tonight, he said hopefully enjoying some hot sex with me, I told him how about dinner at Robins around seven and no sex, he said that's fine as long as I can control myself, he said he'll see me at seven and hung up.

Like I said I know sex isn't our problem, the twins came home, and I told them I'm having dinner with their daddy, so they can have whatever they want for dinner, they went upstairs, and I joined them, after they changed, I help them with their homework, and afterwards we played a board game. James told them they can only play video games if they play a board game first, they enjoyed the board games.

It was time for me to shower and get changed for dinner, after I did that, I said good night to the twins, I kissed them and left. I got to Robins and got seated at my table, this guy sitting across from me kept staring at me, I hope he doesn't come over here I'm not in the mood for his shit.

 James arrived and he's look great as always, he sat down and I called the waiter over, I told him I'll have red wine and the gentleman isn't much of a drinker he'll have spring water, James said no he'll have red wine as well, the waiter said he'll bring our drinks and we can order when we're ready, he left the table.

I told James he doesn't have to have wine just because I am, I know he's not much of a drinker, he said a lot has changed with him since he's been gone, and he enjoys a good wine. He asked me about the twins and my day it was like old times, but I can't forget what happened to change all of that. The waiter came back with our wine, we ordered dinner, and it was nice being with James just talking.

We had a pleasant evening, James excused himself and went to the rest room, I smiled as he walked away, I told myself just see how things go rather we'll get back together or just be friends and no benefits, that will be the hard part if we're just friends. I looked up and the guy across the room was staring at me again, whoever he was with had his back to me, maybe the guy should pay attention to the guy he's with instead of me.

James came back and sat down, the other guy with his back to me turned and looked at James it's Robert, James turned to see what I was looking at, he said we can go if I like, I told him no Savannah isn't that big that one day we weren't going to run into each other. I saw the waiter stop at Roberts table, and then he came over to our table and asked is there anything else we would like. I told him no, and I'll take the check now, he said the man across the room is paying my check, and he already tipped him he walked away.

Robert came to the table and James said since he paid for our meal, he'd like to do the same for him, Robert said no, he paid our bill as a no hard feeling gesture. Robert said the twins told him we're back together and it's about family he walked away, I told James the twins still talk to Robert, he said it's fine and even they want us back together.

We left and James walked me to my car, I told him good night, he thanked me for dinner, damn I was hoping he would invite me over to his place for some great sex, but I'm the one who said no sex, me and my big mouth.

I drove away and headed home, when I got there, I checked on the twins they were asleep, I got a text from James saying again thanks for a wonderful evening, hopefully we can do that again, and let's try and have dinner with the twins twice a week if that's okay with me. I replied back it's fine and good night, I went downstairs and got some wine and took it up to my room, I heard water running in my bathroom, I know I didn't leave the shower going when I left. I walked in there and the shower door came open, it's James.

 He said join him, I asked him how he got in here with all the security, he said remember he worked on the property he knows how to get in here, I got undressed and got in the shower he must've been reading my mind knowing I wanted sex. After we showered, we went into the bedroom and had some hot sex, I was weak from the pounding James gave me, I fell asleep.

The next morning, I woke up and James is gone, but there's a note on the pillow, saying sex wasn't our issue, but what he did for a living is, and he promises to make it up to me and the boys, he left because he didn't want the boys to find him here, that will happen when we remarry and live in our house again. James said he's back in therapy working on some issues as to why he went back to that life, he'll do whatever it takes to get his family back and help himself.

Well, he's trying, and I have to work on forgiving him, because I want our family back too, maybe I should get some counseling myself, or we could do it together. There's a knock on the door and two voices said daddy get up and have breakfast with them, I said I wonder who could be at my door, the door opened, and the twins ran in PJ said it's them.

I said good morning to them, I told them when they talk to Robert, they can't tell him things about me and their daddy, Chan said PJ told Robert we're going to be a family, I told him we are a family only daddy lives in his house, and I live here. Chan said he wishes we all could live with daddy James, PJ said so does he, I told them to let me get out of bed so we can have breakfast, they left the room, I want that too, only James and I have to work on a few things if it's really going to work.

I got out of bed and went into the bathroom and took a quick shower, and afterwards I washed my face and brushed my teeth, I walked out of the bathroom and PJs on the bed. I covered up and walked back into the bathroom and put my robe on, I came back into the room PJ said he wanted to walk me downstairs, he asked me why I had hair down there he doesn't, I told him when he's older he will, he said his thing doesn't hang like that, I told him again when he's older he will. 

Chan came into the room and PJ told him he's going to have hair down there too, he pointed to his private area, Chan asked why. I told them let me get dressed and we can have breakfast, they left the room. God, someday we'll have to have the talk with them, but for now they have some growing up to do before that happens. I got dressed and my phone rang, it's James saying good morning to me, I told him yes, it is and the night was good too, I told him about PJ seeing me naked and what he said, bae laughed and said one day I'll have to have the talk with them, I said we have to have the talk with them when they're older, we're in this together.

James said that sounds good, I told him bye, I hung up I wanted to tell him I still love him, because I do, but we both need help to put our family back together again.

James texted me saying love isn't based on sex, it's just a bonus with the right person, love is based on respect, trust and honesty, and he broke all of that and he just wants all of that back. I replied back if it's meant for us and he's working on all of that in time it will happen, have a wonderful day, he replied back me too.

I prayed and went downstairs and had breakfast with my boys, I really want our family back.