Frail Acceptance

Chapter 13

Noah's POV

The rest of the day at school went by pretty normally, and while coming back from school, Aldric wasn't with us since he had some work to do.

Well, I am glad he wasn't with us because I don't know how to face him yet.

Also, I am not sure what is wrong with my body and heart, so I had to rush home so that I could ask Aunt Katty for a check-up.

Right now, I am in my room completing my homework for the day, but for some reason I am unable to concentrate on anything.

Well, to be honest, it's my guilty conscience that's been eating me up.

Although I don't want to completely trust Aldric, I have been too hostile towards him while he has been nice to me.

But what if he is only pretending and everything has the same ending as before?

I am scared.

But I don't think he was pretending all along, Noah. Jay said.

But if he is actually genuine and is accepting me as his mate and doing all this so we could be like every other normal couple, that is even worse.

You know everything, Jay. Even if we try and accept it slowly, he will definitely leave once he knows our past and sees this body.

He will definitely hate it, Jay.

Definitely! I replied.

To this, Jay also fell silent; he also knows the truth. Nobody is going to accept someone like me.

I am disgusted.

With this dreary feeling in my heart, I continued with my homework, and before I knew it, it was dinner time.

Me, Ethan, and Mia had a peaceful dinner, with me being lost in my own thoughts for most of it.

As I was about to lie on my bed and start reading the book I've been reading, I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in," I said.

"Mind to join us for some hot chocolate?" Ethan asked

"Sure," I replied, and I joined him downstairs, where Mia was sitting on the backyard porch with three hot chocolate mugs on the table.

The sky looked beautiful, and the slightly cold breeze that was flowing around made me forget my worries for a while.

"So what's been bothering you, kiddo?" Ethan broke the silence between us.

And I wasn't surprised he asked me that because I knew they had caught up on it.

"It's nothing serious, trust me." I replied.

"It's fine if you don't feel comfortable talking to us about it, but we are just worried about you.

So, even if not now, whenever you feel like talking to us, please do so."

And that made me feel bad. They are so worried about me, and here I am.

"Is it related to your mate?" Ethan asked

"Hey, you shouldn't ask him anymore." Lia rebuked him.

"But I am just worried about him." Ethan replied

"Still, you shouldn't," Lia said.

"Yes!" I shouted in a louder voice than I meant it to be.

"Sorry?" Lia asked.

"Yes, it is related to my mate." I replied

"You see, he has been nothing but nice to me, and he takes good care of me and everything, but it is still difficult for me to trust him as a matter of fact, and so it feels like I am being rude to him and selfish, and it hurts my conscience too badly."