Frail Acceptance

Chapter 12

Noah's POV

I woke up at the usual time today, but I had no strength or will to get up. The one and only reason for this is my mate. Oh no, the future Alpha.

Firstly, he is going to be driving me to school, which means I have to meet him first thing in the morning. Secondly, whatever happened yesterday, i.e., our date, I still haven't organized my thoughts over it.

I mean, one thing I can say for sure is that whatever I was feeling yesterday was bullshit.

I could say I was a little swayed yesterday because he was being a little nice to me. Okay, fine, he was being very nice to me, but one thing that I've learned thoroughly in my life is to never trust an Alpha, especially the one who is the pack's future Alpha.

But he was actually considerate and genui.. No, no, shut up, Noah. Get it together, will you?

Arghhh. This is so annoying.

But he really was considerate and genuine. Also, it seemed like he did not get angry or frustrated by the fact that he has to be on eggshells because of our condition. Jay said.

Wow, you do know how to talk, Jay. I thought you had forgotten. How could you leave me alone at such a crucial time, Jay? I asked Jay.

I am really sorry, Noah. It's just that meeting our mates happened so suddenly; I wasn't prepared for it, and I got scared of rejection and stuff. I know I behaved like a coward, but the emotions at that time were too overwhelming for me. I am genuinely sorry. Jay replied

Honestly, I felt really bad for Jay because it is wrong for him to always stay strong and hide his feelings just so he could protect me.

I am just not enough; that is why nobody wants to accept me, and that is what I am afraid Aldric will start feeling so soon.

I was right; it is better for me not to get attached to anybody because all I do is bring problems and bad things into people's lives.

Once I become an adult, I will definitely leave Ethan and all because I have been a burden to them too. And before anything bad happens to them, it is better that I leave.

ah, oah, Noah, I came out of my thoughts upon hearing Jay's voice.

Oh, sorry, but to be honest, Jay, it wasn't your fault. You don't have to always be strong; you can have your moments of weakness and share your emotions with me.

I am not that weak. I am sorry that I am not enough, and I did not consider your struggles before this, but not anymore. You can be weak and share everything with me, Jay.

I promise you I'll be strong for you; just please don't disappear like this ever again. You can hide behind me, but talk to me. I replied.

Anyway, let's stop talking about this and start getting ready for the day. I will have to ask Mia or Ethan to apply cream to my scars. I said to Jay

Oh yeah, right, Liam is staying with his mate for a while. Jay replied

I feel bad for him too; because of me, Liam also cannot happily stay with his mate in his own house.

I definitely have to leave here as soon as possible.

I am really happy for him. Jay said

Yeah, me too. I replied.

Right now, I am standing in front of our house waiting for my ma-, I mean, Aldric to come and pick me up for school.

Usually, while getting ready, I don't really care much about my outfits and stuff, but today, for some strange reason, I cared about it.

Though I quickly overcame the thought and opted for a black hoodie and black cap for my perfect being an outsider and unnoticed student get-up.

While I was waiting for them with some unnecessary thoughts about the so-called date circulating in my mind, I saw a car approaching.

When the car stopped in front of me, the front passenger seat door opened, and Aldric came out of the seat.

He is looking good, right? Jay said when we saw him.

I don't know. I replied.

Well, to be honest, he did look good, and it made me want to hide somewhere because I looked too ugly to be walking around with him.

I don't even know what the moon goddess was thinking while pairing us together.

I mean, truth be told, he is too good for someone like me. Even though I don't trust him or am alien towards him, he is way too good, and I know and accept that fact.

More so reason for me to not accept him.

I came out of these distracted thoughts when Aldric wished me a good morning in a very cheerful tone with a wide smile on his face, which made a little warmth spread around my chest area, which I found very strange.

I wished him back with an unsure smile and then started fast walking towards the car.

When I reached the car, I saw Tyler and his mate sitting in the driver and front passenger seats, so I opened the back seat door and sat first, then Aldric joined me on the backseat.

Tyler and his mate exchanged a greeting with me, and after that, the journey to school was mostly silent, which was also good; we reached the school within just a 10-minute ride.

I was ready to get out of the car as soon as we reached the parking lot of the school, but Aldric stopped me and said, "Let's have lunch together. What do you say?"

"Umm yea~" I replied, not really knowing what to say because all three of them were looking at me.

The time went by really fast, and the unwanted lunch break came sooner than I had expected. To my misfortune, Tyler was in my class, so he did not give me any chance to run away, and also, Li was standing outside our classroom with everyone to go together with me and Tyler to the cafeteria.

Lunch was super awkward with so many people sitting around me, and the worst part was that Aldric was sitting right across me on the table, and I could continuously feel his gaze on me.

I could not eat much because of my anxiety issues. I felt bad about wasting the food, but I could not even digest a single bite with so many people around.

And two things that were even more intriguing were that, firstly, I am too fat and ugly in comparison to my mate, and once people know their future alpha is mated to me, they will definitely be disappointed, and this made me lose my appetite.

Second, Aldric seemed disappointed and angry at me, which made my heart beat fast, and I felt like my chest area was sinking into some water and I could not breathe.

So as soon as the lunch break bell rang, I excused myself and ran off, but stopped as soon as I heard Aldric calling me.

He came running from the back and stood in front of me with four juice bottles in hand and said,

"I am sorry, I didn't know my lunch suggestion would cause you to not eat food properly and make you so uncomfortable. From now on, you can decide what you want according to your preferences. I am genuinely sorry."

"Also, take these with you and please drink them; I cannot handle you being starved or sick."

And there it was again—the warmth in my chest and the sparks flowing all over my body because his hands touched mine while handing the juice bottles.

My heart was beating so fast that I could hear it clearly, and I am sure he could hear it too.

Why am I being like this? Why do I suddenly feel happy and light-hearted when I am with him? But then suddenly, I feel like crying. And then I am nervous. What is exactly wrong with me?

A/N: Love is in the air...💕

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