This Damn Love

Part-24: Letting it out

Taehyung's firm grasp on Jin's arm brings him to an abrupt stop, the weight of the hold causing Jin to momentarily struggle before surrendering. Despite the evident strain, Jin's unwavering expression reveals no hint of tears, his countenance betraying an emptiness within.

"Will you trust me if I ask you something to do? Not for me but for yourself."

Jin glares him with his deer eyes, "Let me go. I don't wanna be part of any of your shenanigans you wanna pull on me."

Tae simply extends his hand towards Jin, "I'm not fooling around here Jin. Trust me and give me your hand? For a moment just forget who hurted whom and for what reason."

Jin looks at Taehyung with anticipation. His mind dwelling on things if he should really trust the man in front of him with whatever he's upto. Nonetheless, he let his palm fall on Tae's palm before connecting his eyes with him.

Taehyung begins, "Remember once you said Seoul doesn't have the peace you require in your life? You're right! It doesn't have peace rather full of taunting voices, amidst which your heartbeat can get lost. You forget if you even have a heart that exist inside your chest. One who can't hear his own emotions, how can you except anyone else to do the same? But there's one more thing Seoul has. The Deepening silence! Which can strangle your emotions within you. You won't be able to share your feelings to anyone anymore."

Jin, without breaking eye contact for even a mere second, tightens his hold on elder's palm.

"There's hurt along with blood that this fucking heart of ours pumps. Listen to me and get it out of your heart. Cry Jin! Cry like your deserve it. Like once you used to laugh. Unconditional and unjudged. With no shame or embarrassment whatsoever. Just empty your heavy heart for once and for all."

Jin is flabbergasted to say the least. Taehyung is the last person he has expected to hear such words from.

"I can't Taehyung-"

Tae cuts him off by placing his finger over his lips making Jin go silent.

"You're the son of a doctor. You know if a wound has affected internally, no ointment can help you heal it unless you cater those internal part of your body. Your anger has never been towards me or anyone around you. It's your stacked emotions that is coming back to you. It is asking to come out of it's chain and free itself. That's why, just let it out, Jin."

Jin shakes his head. Tears already cornering his eyes.

"You're afraid to show your emotions to your family right? You don't want them to see you crying and being weak? But for that to happen you need to stay alive. You can't do that with your heavy heart clutching your throat for the rest of your life."

"But Taehyung-"

Taehyung ignores every Buts and Ifs coming out of Jin's mouth.

"What is it that you miss the most related to your Appa?"

The flashes of the moments he has spent with his Appa comes crashing down to him. His abdomen crunching at very visual of the man he loves the most in his life.

"You're hurting right?" Tae asks taking Jin's expression into account.

Jin sniffs, "It was my Appa. I feel so many thing inside me right now. Pity on myself, anger which I don't know whom I should direct it to. I want to yell but for Eomma, I need to enclose it into a thick jar."

Taehyung pushes Jin to look towards the water flowing down the cliff, "No one is here to judge you. It's just you against the whole world. Just trust me and let it out of your throat like you're cursing the whole world for snatching your Appa away from you. Yell till you can only hear yourself amidst the loud noises of the city."