Biotanical [h.s]

Happiness is a Butterfly

"I'm already hurt
If he's as bad as they say, then I guess I'm cursed
Lookin' into his eyes, I think he's already hurt."
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Harry

I kissed her. I did it. And I didn't know what I was doing. She just looked so ethereal in the light.

I Immediately felt my pants tightening down near my crotch.

Fuck.

I didn't know I missed sexual contact so much. At least my body did. I backed up quickly, realizing that I needed to go home. Maybe it wasn't the best approach but it was all I was able to think of at the time. I walked fast to my car, and drove off. The image of her natural beauty replayed in my head.

As I drove home, I talked to Clem about her day.

"We got to plant today! And guess what I found out. Ms. Noa isn't a mommy. But she wants to be one day. She said she wants a daughter and for her name to be Mable I think, or Maize. I forgot but I made friends!"

"Wow baby! Who did you meet?" I was so happy for her, she was finally becoming social. My dream is to be able to host sleep overs at her house with all her friends as they admire her full blown out room top to bottom in pinks and yellow with a tipi in the corner where she can laugh and tell secrets. That's what imagined for her. Those parents that use their money to make their kids room mature are people I will never come to understand.

"Her name is Dylan! I ate lunch with them today too! Ms. Noa introduced me!" She says so excitedly.

"That's great baby, I'm so happy! What do you say for dinner tonight? Pizza?" I asked, and she nodded.

"Yes daddy, please! Also, can we visit mommy tomorrow?" My heart stung, taking every bit of happiness and throwing it out the window.

"Yes, honey of course. I'm off tomorrow I will drop you off and pick you then we can go okay?" She nodded. I hated this gutted feeling. It was our anniversary and Clem strived to be with her mother that was 6 feet under.

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"Clem, hey baby, time to wake up." I nudged her, which I usually never have to do.

"Okay daddy, I'm up." She said as her eyes closed. I tickled her small feet, her giggles taking over her room.

"C'mon get dressed, you have camp. And we are seeing Mommy today. It's a good day to look forward to!" I exclaimed. At least it could be for her, but was never a day I looked forward to.

"Okay!" She replied, her naked body ran out of the bedsheets, getting dressed by herself putting on a t-shirt with a pair of jean baggy shorts. I chase her around, getting her in the bathroom so I can put her hair in a half up, half down in a small clip.

I let her go, walking downstairs to eat a small amount of the strawberries I left on the counter. I grab her small bag and put it over my shoulder as I take my work bag. I put her in her car seat, and get in the front driving to camp.
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"Hey baby, be on your best behavior today? Love you Clemmie." I whisper to her ear as she runs off to Dylan. I smiled then looked at Noa.

"Listen I -" she shakes her head.

"No it's okay, about yesterday. Just um, can I have your number instead?" She asks. I relieve myself, nodding my head.

"Y-yeah, here." I gave her my business card.

"Thanks, see you later, bye Harry." She says, I wink walking away. I walk back into my car,

I decided to drive to work for an hour before going home. I usually reserve this day for me and Maude but she wasn't here anymore.  I drove to work about a few minutes away from the camp. Once I got out I walked into the building, seeing my name in big letters in the front.