I was driving home with Jance, he was silent and so was I. We both know what is happening between us, alam ko na ang lahat. He refused to talk about it.
When we arrived at his house ay wala naman siyang ibang ginawa. I never knew I would see another side of him that would scar me for life.
"Jance, mag-usap tayo." I started but he didn't listen.
"Magluluto na ako." He simply said, ignoring me.
"Jance, bakit ka naging ganun? Isa ka sa mga responsableng teacher na nakilala ko. I also received complaints from my advising na hindi ka raw maayos na teacher."
"Laina, huwag nating pag-usapan ngayon. Pagod ako." He said with a strong and serious voice.
"No, ayusin mo ang sarili mo. Jance kapag hindi ka umayos then maghiwalay na tayo."
Humarap ito sa akin na nakakunot and crossed his arms.
"Kaya mo?" Pagtataray nito kaya nilabanan ko siya.
"Sa ating dalawa, sino sa tingin mo ang mas may kaya?" He was getting on my nerves!
"Laina, this is stupid. Walang sense na pag-awayan lang natin ito, it's ridiculous." He stated and continued ignoring the conversation. "Laina tumigil ka naiinis na ako."
I can't believe it! He was genuinely irritated!
"No! Hindi kita titigilan, as your girlfriend I should be able to control your actions."
"Fuck! You don't get to control me! No one does!" He yelled and grabbed my arms to pull me closer. "Listen, I do what I want okay? You got that!?"
Hindi ako makagalaw. Was he really lashing out at me? I get that he was mad but this is different! Natatakot na ako.
Nang hindi ako umimik ay malakas niya akong itinulak papunta sa pader but I supported my balance by blocking my arm on the wall. Napaupo ako sa impact nun at tinignan siya.
Nag-iba ang emosyon sa mata niya the minute he saw me on the floor.
"Laina.."
Lalapitan niya sana ako but he just kneeled in front of me and started apologizing. I was shaking in front of him, in fear of knowing that he was able to hurt me like this...
"L-Laina, I'm sorry." He said while refusing to touch me, scared of what he had done to me. "Laina..."
"I-I want to go home." I simply muttered and he nodded.
He called Eric to pick me up and drive me to my house. Nasa loob na ako ng kotse ni Eric when they started talking. I rolled the window down when they walked to the car.
"Magpahinga ka, hindi kita guguluhin bukas." Jance said before turning his back and going inside his house.
Eric got in the car and started driving.
"Lalaina, sana alam mong Jance has anger issues." He explained. "He can't control them, well he tries but when he gets triggered he really gets out of control."
"I know..." I simply say.
"Sana hindi ito maging rason sa hiwalayan niyo, I know na you didn't feel safe from what he did but I hope you understand na Jance isn't a monster. He just has trouble with his emotions."
"Alam ko iyon, Eric. I forgive him, I just don't get why he hurt me like that..."
"It's not a red flag, well it is but Jance was once checked by a professional and this is normal for his condition pero alam kong nagsisisi siya ngayon."
"Eric, I know I just want him to fix himself para na rin hindi na siya makapanakit."
"Takot ka ba?"
"Yes, but he's my boyfriend. I know him more than anyone in the world."
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The Tranquility in You
General FictionWARNING: Pls don't mind errors or typos, will edit once the story is finished. Tnx :P Lalaina is elegant, classy and smart. Men tend to fall for her "dalagang filipina" type of personality. For Lalaina, falling in love was pure and sacred. She doesn...
