The Tranquility in You

Chapter: 30

Iniwasan niya ako buong araw after what he saw. It was like he knew what was going to happen to us. I didn't want to do it but we need time, he was draining himself and I was getting much off of him.

Tumuloy ako sa dinner namin but I took my car. He put his things down and gave me a little kiss on my cheek.

"I'll make dinner, baby."

"Okay babe."

He didn't mention anything about what happened earlier, he didn't ask me anything and he didn't want to know what the principal said to me.

"Jance, can we talk?" I asked him but he didn't respond kaya tumayo ako at sumunod sa kusina. "Jance I really need to talk to you-."

"Can you pass the salt baby? Mabilis na ito." He said as he stirred the pot.

I quickly gave him the salt since I felt him tensing up from what we were going to talk about. I knew about his anger management issues but I needed to do this for both of us, masyado niyang inuubos ang sarili niya and it was draining me as well. Pinatapos ko muna siya na magluto bago ko siya kausapin ng ayos, nang matapos naman siya ay ilang beses niyang iniiwasan ang kausapin ako kaya I decided after dinner we will talk.

"Jance I-."

"May gala pala kami ni Oscar at Eric bukas if that's okay with you." He cut me off again. "If you don't want me to go then I'll take you out na lang. Date tayo sa mall."

"Jance enough, we need to talk." I said kaya tinignan niya ako. "I know about the reports...you weren't at school earlier. Again!"

"Wala 'yon, Laina." He argued pero hindi ako nagpatinag.

"Pero career mo ang nakataya. I'm distracting you and it's not fair sa mga estudyante mo na nawawala ka sa focus dahil lang sa akin." I said kaya tumayo siya. "Jance please, pagbigyan mo ako kasi nahihirapan na rin ako."

"Laina kung nahihirapan ka na then tell me. Hindi yung aabot tayo sa punto na ito kasi kahit hindi mo sabihin alam ko na kung anong gusto mong mangyari but I'm sorry Laina pero ayokong sundin ang gusto mo."

"Don't be like this, darling." I tried to comfort him but he just walked out.

I cleaned up our plates and followed him outside, nakaupo lang siya sa tapat ng bahay habang umiinom ng beer. I was really scared on how it would turn out kasi I knew how he reacts kapag hindi niya gusto ang nangyayari.

"Jance we need to cool off." Diretsang sabi ko but he didn't react or even look at me. "Jance pagbigyan mo na ako." I said again to get a response. "Jance, aalis ako-."

"Laina umalis ka na kasi alam kong ayaw mong nakikita akong mag-wala." He said. "Umalis ka na kasi nagpipigil lang ako na gumawa ng kung ano para matakot ka."

I watched as he gripped on his beer kaya mabilis akong pumasok sa bahay para kuhanin ang lahat ng gamit ko. I was packing when he came in the room at pinanood ako, he wasn't mad anymore, it was like he finally realized what was happening kaya naluha siya pero hindi niya ako pinigilan. Like he wanted me to leave now...

I finished packing and took my keys, lalabas na sana ako when he spoke again.

"Please tell me babalik ka." He whispered so I stopped. Tinignan ko siya and he was fighting his tears. "Lie if you have to..."

"Yes, Jance...babalik ako."

I was unsure of it but I wanted to come back once we fixed ourselves. I quickly got inside of my car and looked outside, he was inside and didn't follow me out. I hurt him so much and I didn't like it.

I drove home and ran up my room crying. I wanted to talk to Ella but I knew she was busy. Primo has a child and I couldn't talk to anyone about my problem.

I hurt him.. I hurt my boyfriend.