From Dreams to Nightmares

Chapter 15

Kaly's perspective

  As I opened the room door ready to face my own thoughts and realizations of these volcanic evenings I freeze when I meet my dear friend Zoe who was looking at me from the side with an unusual expression, a combination of amusement with pride. Why are all the newer ones full of them? Is it a newer trend to have an ego as big as a house? And I don't even know how to react..

I don't even know what to think at first. My heart was racing like a racehorse. I bet Zoe herself is hilariously amused by my cancer-red face.

"You have some explanations to give! I saw everything from the window!" she said in a serious tone and I felt the life drain from my eyes. Why did I let this happen? How did we get to this point? Curiosity, desire, need? Not even all of them together can provide an answer to what just happened. I was driving myself crazy, I wanted to push aside everything I was feeling now but it was impossible for me.

"That kiss was something, exactly like in books or movies. I am so jealous right now!"

Despite my arrogance she was right. I've never had a kiss like this before. Her lips were soft and full of desire, hungry to have me. And I, like the strongest drug I fell prey to them, and now I'm in withdrawal burning to feel them once more. I was afraid of the intensity of the kiss, of the lascivious tension floating between us. What if I hadn't stopped but degenerated to more? Would I have wanted more? I lie that I don't want her, but I'm more horny and wet than ever. My panties are so soaked I can hear them when I walk. But still the guilt is more intense...

It's not normal what I feel now, it's not good what I feel now. "It shouldn't have come to this Zoe, I'm sorry. I'm a horrible friend!" How could I do that? I have a boyfriend for God's sake. "Why do you say that dear?" She asks me gently and hugs me tightly. "I know how you feel about her..." I say and a few hot tears run down my cheeks. "You thought that if my feelings were so strong I would let her get close to you? To anyone else, I love you the most. You are my sister, my best friend, my teammate. And if she only wants you, who am I to oppose? And I admit that I'm a little jealous of you. You have the opportunity to live the most beautiful love and you kick it." She tells me almost in a whisper and I hug her even tighter. "How do you know she won't use me?" Everything is so messed up. "You just have to try and find out!"

" But Sebastian?" I asked her in a lower voice. She acts like he doesn't exist, but he does, and he is my boyfriend. I may not feel the same intensity for him as I fell for her but that doesn't mean I fell nothing for him. I've spent one hole tear with him. A year that I can not erase...

"What about him? He might be your boyfriend but is he your lover? Is he the one you last think about when you go to sleep and the first person you want to see in the morning?" Her words hurt me. Because the moment I will let myself loose everything for something that is delusional is the moment I will accept that I am different...

"Kaly stop thinking so much, you're 18 and still a virgin! You are going to end up old and alone, maybe with cats..." she said and I frowned, she is exaggerating, and she knows that I am a dog person. " So you want me to get fucked?" I asked and she rolled her eyes at me, as if I said something stupid, I literally hate when she acts like this... she opened her mouth to say something more but I stopped her. I really need to shut up her mouth.

" Fine, I'll call her! I am going to call Octavia..." so I started checking my pockets, every one, my phone is not in one of them. Fuck... I forgot my phone in her car... I mumbled some curses under my breath and Zoe started laughing. " Seems like you had to see her anyway!" She said and dials my number, the phone started ringing, once... don't pick up, twice... don't you dare pick up Octavia, third... she picked up!

After a humiliating conversation with Octavia, and the presence of Zoe at the back of my head not helping at all, I find myself walking down the streets towards the car parked facing an old wall that cuts off any view... My heart was racing like racehorses in my chest, ready at any time to jump from it's seat and leave, my legs were shaking, not only from the cold but also from this strange feeling that terrifies me. I don't even know what scares me, the fact that she will stick to her word when she called or that she won't stick to it... I don't want to do what I promised but it tempts me at the same time...

As if I knew where she was sitting, I climbed into the back seat and her strong scent filled my nostrils, her scent was intoxicating yet addictive, I wanted to smell it all the time. Her image was not at all indecent or vulgar, but her eyes were staring into me. I suddenly felt so small, not that I was very big but it made me feel even smaller. My gaze was captured by the image of her prominently defined arms, the muscles straining as if they wanted to tear the sleeve of her T-shirt. Haven't I looked at it in that detail before or I just didn't want to?  She was incredibly seductive with her body, and lascivious with her words. It was hard not to fall prey to her...

I wanted to break this agonizing silence but it was as if I had a lump in my throat, the words did not dare to come out at all. She was looking at me, studying me daringly, every detail, everything, even though I was dressed I felt completely naked under her gaze, more precisely the top I was wearing now. I watch her lick her lips, it was a habit she did quite often, or I just noticed it too quickly. I open my mouth to say something but am surrounded by two strong arms. She positioned me on her lap where I could feel her breath hitching from the way her chest rose and fell rapidly. "It's hard for me not to touch you, but it's like you're only doing it against me by coming dressed like that!"  His voice came out low and seductive, and his eyes darted to my cleavage. I lift her chin with a finger and she looks at me with wide eyes. For the first time I see it from above, it's a damn beautiful picture. "Give me back my phone so I can go"

"Your phone is there!" She says and points to the side of the car where my phone was, I reach for it but I'm pulled back by her, she was too strong for me. "Don't take anything, don't kiss me!" I try to lie down again, but again I'm pulled back by her. "How many times do I have to tell you that I'm not attracted to you, I came to get my phone!" I tell her and she starts laughing. Honestly, I didn't believe myself when I said it either. "I imagine your boyfriend is the definition of sex-appeal!"  Kiss me and I'll give you whatever you want..." my eyes dart over her full, naturally rosy lips, and having the taste of them haunt me was enough convincing to want them again.

So I leaned in connecting my lips with hers, it didn't take long for her to kiss me back and from a slightly sensual one it gradually turned into a tight one full of desire, need and hunger.  Breaking our kiss I settled myself better on her lap and with my legs on either side of her, my hands found their way to her hair, tangling my fingers through it. Her hands made their way from my waist down to my ass. When her hands squeezed my ass I couldn't stop from letting out a few moans, the need had started to radiate from me in waves, I had started to stir frantically in her lap,  to feel how my pussy was rubbing against her member which was hard again I could feel it through my pants.

She broke the kiss, we were both breathless, it felt so fucking good... " This is much coming from someone who says that is not attracted to me!" She said and I couldn't stop myself from moaning as her hands guided my hips. " Please, Fuck me Octavia!" I find myself saying, I was actually begging, I really wanted to feel her inside me right now. But she stopped herself and me at the same time. " No..." she said and I furrowed my brow, I was sceptical that I heard wrong. " What do you mean no?" I asked her and she kissed my lips once more, it was short but It was still as good as the other. " Not today, not in a car! If you really want me to be your first, I'll do it properly, exactly how you imagined it."  My eyes widened at her words,  I was expecting everything but not her to know that I am a virgin actually. " How do you know?" I asked and she took a strand of her behind my ear before saying. " It wasn't hard to figure it out... Now take your phone, and I am taking your home!  You are not going to walk like that, anywhere!"

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