From Dreams to Nightmares

Chapter 18

Kaly's perspective

  How did I get into this situation?

   My breathing was fast, my heart was racing. I have never felt this way. The desire burning inside me now was a consuming flame. Pure erotic torture. The distance between us was almost non-existent and the smell of alcohol she carried was intoxicating. She was looking at me with wide, striving eyes in the dim light of the bulbs, but my eyes were almost closed. Like all I wanted was to feel, to feel anything. Her breath on my skin was like electricity sending dozens of shivers running through my body.

  "Why are you tormenting me? This obsession I've developed for you grinds me to the core. You have become the object of my desires, and the reason for all my rants. Day and night I dream of you, only you. I look for you in every woman and I don't find you in any of them. Don't you realize that you are the reason for my existence?"  she tells me sweetly, almost whispering, her voice was tormented and my soul cried because I was the source of her suffering. Of the billions of hearts that beat on this earth, hers was the last one I would have wanted to break.

  "It kills me that I consume myself for nothing knowing that the feelings I have for you will not be mutual forever. And I'm tired of you playing with me! Tell me how much you want me and then choose someone else." a tear runs down her cheek and I reach up to wipe it away with my finger but she grabs my hand and stops me. Her touch gave me goosebumps. A unique feeling I can say. The stars screamed when she touched me! "I'm sorry..." was all I could say as the words stuck in my throat like a freshly sharpened knife.

  "I'm sorry, is that all you can say? You went to him because I didn't do what you told me to do that night? Are you that kind of person?" Although I knew she wasn't talking, it was the drink, but her words still offended me. "What kind of person am I exactly?" I ask her offended by her persistent questions! "Frivolous!" she says again on the girl I could read the disgust with which she looked at me. I slap her and burst into tears. "You have no right to make me a whore!"

She takes a step back and stumbles instantly, barely able to stay on her feet. She looks at me long once more. She was sorry for what he said but didn't want to say it. She was proud! I'm a little stuck when I see that even though she's staggering she turns and runs to the bathroom down the hall. I follow her and she collapses next to the toilet starting to throw up. I gather her hair and hold it to the other so it doesn't tangle her and we let her empty everything inside her. It was the first time I saw her drunk, she doesn't usually drink!

"I have to go!" she says trying to get up but she stumbles and I barely catch her to straighten her up. "Don't go anywhere! Tonight you stay here, I'll help you take a shower and then you'll sleep. If you still want to say something, you will say it tomorrow, in a better state!" I was talking dragging her up the stairs after me, with each step it became more tiring to help her up. When we get to my room I throw her on the bed while I go to the bathroom to turn on the water in the shower.

I picked out a change of clothes for her to sleep in. It was her clothes that she gave me the most, but that's not what matters now. Slowly and with small steps she entered the bathroom and I closed the door behind her. I start to smooth the bed a bit and reach for my vibrator, damn, where the hell am I putting it now? In, In the nightstand, I say that's a good place for it and throw it there.

I'm no longer walking around the room preparing pills and water for Octavia because the bathroom door opens and she comes out wearing only the shorts I gave her and the Calvin Klein sports bra. Damn, she looks too good and the way the water was still running down her stomach is making my mouth water. What the hell is wrong with you Kaly? This is not the time! You don't even have the right anymore!

"I left your water and medicine on the bedside table. Get them tomorrow morning! You can stay here, I'll be in the next room if you need anything..." I start walking towards the door when I see her sitting on the edge of the bed. But I don't get to the door well because I hear her voice, now she didn't seem nervous or disappointed anymore. She was just calm. " Do not go! stay here with me, at least let me get this much from you..."

"I don't think it's a good idea, you'll regret it tomorrow!" I approach her and tell her but she doesn't look at me either. And I already missed her chocolate eyes. "I didn't ask you to stay tomorrow, I asked you to stay now! Lay down as I tell you, you only know I'm a fool and I won't touch you forever unless you tell me to!" I lay down on the bed and she does the same, I turn my back to her and feel how she moves in turn finding her comfortable position to be able to fall asleep.

"I don't think it was a good decision to stay here!" she says breaking the silence that it was a torment that doesn't let me sleep at all. " Do you want me to leave?" I ask her and she turns me around taking me in her arms. My heart was pounding in my chest ready to get out and run so I wouldn't find her forever. e But her touch calms me, her hand tracing invisible circles on my skin. "You know there's a saying... you keep your friends close and your enemies even closer! I want you so close to me, I want to be inside you!" it took my breath away when she spoke and I felt myself on fire just hearing her. I have nothing to hide now. I want Octavia! But I don't think she wants me anymore, and I can't let her do something she'll surely regret tomorrow.

"I want you too but not in this state!" I tell her and she hugs me even tighter. "You're right, then just stay like this with me, don't leave!" I was so comfortable that for a moment I forgot where I was. Our breaths were synchronizing, feeling her body so close was such an edenic feeling, so incredible it didn't seem earthly. Will it be love?