From Dreams to Nightmares

Chapter 23

Kaly's perspective

Cursed be we the people who spoil the good hearts. We drown in our fear and become selfish. But I woke up to reality. And I will fight to rebuild what I broke and I won't stop until I get what I want. And I want Octavia!

I struggled to find the courage to face her again. It was hard for me, I have to admit, but I couldn't let her see how much guilt was weighing on me. All he needed to see was just how much I cared. How much I want her to come back to me. I want the days to take on color again and the nights to take shape. For the birds to sing again, and for me to find my happiness in all that it means to me. And she for me means the whole world, from the rich to the beggar and from the moon to the stars. She is the sunrise and the sunset to me, and yet my words cannot encompass the whole feeling of affection I feel for her. I always wanted to be loved by someone who would make my life a paradise, but you never thought that someone would be her, it would be a woman. And that's why I was afraid. But now I don't feel like it anymore, because life is full of frustrations, and I can't live with them knowing that I want her and she wants me, but still I ruined everything that we could have been just because of the fear of to recognize that this unpredictable feeling will appear for a person so suddenly and unexpectedly. But it wasn't so unexpected because I've been dreaming of her since I was young, I've been dreaming of this girl before I met her, I knew I'd love her even before I knew she was a woman.

I walk confidently into her house invited by her aunt who hands me a portion of soup. I look at her questioningly and she looks at me confidently. God, how much they both look alike, but I didn't know she was her aunt, I could have sworn she was her mother. "Maybe she's eating from you... She's in her room upstairs. Please, whatever happens, whatever he says, don't take it to heart. He always says things we later regret!" she nods and sighs again making my way to the bedroom of the girl who has been haunting my dreams for years. And now all that was between us was a wooden door that was giving me a panic attack. And the fear of being rejected by her is killing me. And as annoyed as it seemed to me in the beginning, her absence has become so excruciating. I knock on the door slightly uncertain, but when I hear his voice my heart races in my chest ready to jump from its place. "Aunt, if I'm not mistaken I told you to leave me alone!" I open the door and her figure was lying on the bed with her back to me. I could see her defined back muscles vaguely hidden by the bustier she was wearing in the dim light of the room. I step inside and close the door behind me. "I came to bring you soup so you can eat something too, you can't stay like this!" I say almost in a whisper, I was afraid of the reaction she might have when she looked at me. And as soon as she heard my voice, the girl jumped out of bed and turned to face me, looking at me intensely. She had a face like marble but in her eyes I could read amazement. "What are you doing here? You haven't had enough of playing with me, do you want more?"

"I just came to talk to you, Octavia. I have no bad intentions, at least not for you, ever! I just want you to listen to me!" I was asking him to listen to me but I didn't know what to say. What could I say to him to change the hateful look he was looking at me with now. "Seriously? what do you want to tell me? You came to tell me in detail how your boyfriend fucks you? I don't care!" She calls me cold and I hawk her words like a knife turned into a wound. But to be honest, I didn't expect them to welcome me with open arms. "I know I was wrong Octavia, I judged myself with your feelings without realizing it, I gave you the idea that you could have me and then I did it on my own, but you have no idea how much I regret not giving you a chance , that you were not his place. Because I wanted to lie and hide that I only wanted you, now and then, and even when I tried to close my eyes and think about you I couldn't feel you in his place because I really wanted you to hold in his place. But I was afraid to accept, because afterwards I would have liked you so much that I would not have let you go." I say again tears started to flood my eyes and I leave the bowl I still had in my hand on the desk next to me then I get a little closer to her. I guess it was a good sign that she didn't move at all from where she was sitting and let me get close to her. "Oh Kalilah, I had so many plans for you, I wanted to fulfill your every dream and fantasy, but you chose to run into the arms of someone who not only didn't give a damn about you, but took everything you had. He took your friends, your popularity, he took your judgment. I would have made a carpet of petals at your feet but you chose to walk on stones.  What do you want me to do now? To welcome you with open arms? I can't! And I can swear you won't touch me in any way you want. Because you no longer deserve, you no longer deserve to have me." She tells me and my heart breaks piece by piece with every word that comes out of her mouth. And if I had known that I would suffer so much because of a kiss I shared with her I would have walked away in the rain that evening, but still it would have happened again and again, the inevitable cannot be hidden endlessly. Especially when two souls are made for each other...

"I don't deserve many things I have, but I will deserve you! I will fight everything and do anything to win you back, even if I lose myself or my pride in the process." I tell him then I turn on tiptoe to leave. I didn't know what to say and under her gaze I felt so small. I felt even more guilty than before. But her hand catches mine and turns me back to her. "I'm not done talking!" I look at her hand which was much bigger than mine and was encompassing my entire arm like it was a tree branch. "I want you to answer me honestly Kalilah!" she says, squeezing my arm even harder, but the adrenaline I was feeling blocked all the pain. and I nod her head. "Did your perfect lover satisfy you?" I can't believe he asked me such a thing! He asks me if he doesn't already know the answer... "Answer!" she says even more sharply and I couldn't decipher what was in her eyes. "No!"

Her hand leaves my arm and makes its way alongside the other on my waist pressing me against her body. And the feel of her hands drawing lines of fire down my body leaving the chicken fold behind. "Did your body have the same reaction when he touched you?" I swallowed the lump in my throat and a small moan escaped me as her hands gripped my ass. Is it weird to think my ass is perfect for her hands? "Never!" I say breathing fast like she was running a marathon but I wasn't even moving the only things moving were her hands on my body, on my thighs, on my bottom then on my stomach making their way from my breasts around my neck. And when her hands tighten around my neck it takes my breath away watching her look at me and her brown eyes were now black and full of lust.

And over my parted lips she forcefully sticks hers. And I immediately kiss her back as if I've done this a thousand times with the same hunger. Everything was easy with her, even kissing her was something so natural. And I let myself be carried away by this intense desire to lose myself in her taste. And her taste was like the gate to paradise, one step away from the highest peak of happiness. Her kiss was like a breath of spring. Something so natural and yet so intense and heady that it made you addicted. and in her arms I really found my addiction.

But she pushes me away from each other. Closing the door to paradise. "I don't trust your words, I want facts! Next time you come over I want you to show me you've done something, and you know exactly what I want! I want you to break up with that bastard and throw away that initial chain." she tells me and I grab the chain with my hand as if without thinking and break it from my neck throwing it out the window. "I always keep my word, and if I said something, it will be so!"

Im so sorry for not posting in so long, but I'm back and I will not leave this story.
I hope you like the chapter.

LittleSome0ne ❤️