From Dreams to Nightmares

Chapter 30

Octavia's perspective

  With the sunlight and the atmosphere of the house changes. Or maybe it's just in my head. The oppressive silence, the lack of words. All this fell on my shoulders like a heavy and oppressive fog.

I was looking at the girl occupying my thoughts aimlessly in stopping it makes me think if what I'm doing right now is worth it. How did I manage to crawl around her soul? Of all the people in the world how did she look down on me? I have not always had self-confidence, and I think I will never be able to live without asking myself a thousand questions when it comes to this gorgeous being. Sitting on the sofa with her sister, I watch her meticulously help the employees to break the disturbance caused by the overnight crossing. I even offered to help her, I didn't want to leave her alone, she with a lot of persuasion forced me not to do it, and the employees told her not to help them but she, showing another part of her soul, a humble one, even human, she was dying to help them. It was already quite late and her parents retired to their room but we stayed here. The redhead was collecting the glasses scattered in the living room, her sister was sleeping unturned in my arms and I was admiring her with my eyes. And she glances at me from time to time, even a smile. God, how sweet is your smile! I say to myself, totally lost in the very intimate sight of the moment. It wasn't a lascivious sight, it was the kind of intimacy that warmed your heart more than it made it pound. Words were not enough!

Watching the girl smile and blush under my gaze reminds me of a conversation I had with her so-called boyfriend a few days ago.

  After the program was over and I was about to leave high school, there was a day when Kaly followed me down the hall when everyone else was in the cafeteria to ask me if I had really made up with Alex. She was begging me to say no, the girl kept repeating that she was sorry and for me to tell her that it was all a bad joke. Looking at her then, how she looked at me with wide and glassy eyes, I knew that this is not for me, to play with people... That was the moment when in my heart I forgave her. It was stupid from the beginning to be angry with her for not choosing me when I should have fought even harder for her.  He most likely listened to our conversation because when I was in the parking lot, I was walking to the car when I heard his voice calling me. It was surprising because he hadn't said a word to me until then. But when I turn around I see him coming furiously and with rapid steps. I don't even react well as his hands grabbed my hoodie that I was wearing, it was a stupid position because I was taller than him and all he was trying to do was pull me down to his level. "Be careful, what an atrocity you are, if I see you get close to Kaly again, I'll break your legs! I will not allow any of you to make fun of me." he says between his teeth and my reaction was to be amused by the scene that he was playing without knowing what he was getting into...

"A little jealous for a person who was making out with a cheerleader two breaks ago" I say and he pulls my sweatshirt harder. "You think you have a chance with Kaly? You're wrong! She'll always do exactly as I say, she loves me, she's far too naive to do anything when it comes to me. Stay away from her, you don't know her and you won't, she's far too innocent for someone like you and you don't want to mess with me, I'll destroy you!" he tells me oppressive words that he didn't even realize. He was speaking in ignorance. He didn't know anything, and his self-confidence got on my nerves a lot. I tried to hold back but I couldn't anymore, his words that were trying to be threatening were just aberrations. From his continuous attempt to pull me down I gained momentum and hitting him in the face with my head I broke his nose. When he heard the crack he let go of me and put his hands to his nose. Then it was my turn to grab his shirt and push him with his back to the car, more slamming against it. "Listen to me, friend, I don't think you know who you're talking to. Mind your own business. And your girlfriend hasn't been yours for a long time. So you'd better get out of this scheme yourself and don't make me get you out! You're going to suffer a lot, especially your popularity that you hold on to with your teeth," I say slamming once more and he whimpered at the contact with the hard metal of the car.