From Dreams to Nightmares

Chapter 25

Octavia's perspective

Just like time, love is fleeting. This feeling will no longer exist with the same intensity as it once did. But that doesn't mean you don't love anymore. It's simply a choice, you choose daily to love a person exactly as they are. This fever of feeling does not last for months or even years. Or maybe my romance is just broken. But I know that out of love we do stupid things, and the stupid thing I would do would be to share myself with you.

And now I sit and wonder. do you know? Do you know that I would burn for you Kalilah? Would I burn in the fires of hell just so I can keep you warm when you're cold? I'd love enough for both just to know you at my right hand. To be able to hold your hand and claim you as mine. And maybe I'm selfish but my heart would swell in my chest knowing how upset everyone would be like you are only mine and only I can have you...

One thing will be clear, although I won't show it to you, I won't give up. And now I know how to play your games.

" Alex why did you come here? Of all the places you would have chosen why here? Don't you think you've ruined my life enough?" I sharply ask the blonde in front of me who was now looking at the ground ashamed of me. I pulled her out of high school as soon as the bell rang and the students were rushing down the halls to get to class. "I know I was wrong Tavy, I lied I caused you suffering and torture. But in the end the truth came out..." she was trying to explain and I exhaled nervously. "Did you just lie Alex? You told everyone I tried to rape you! Your parents wanted to report me to the police. And I don't think you want to know what I went through with my parents. That man broke 3 ribs when he beat me. Even now I can't breathe well without pain. Just because you were too afraid to tell them you like girls." luckily no one was there to hear me scream at this girl who was looking at me with tears in her eyes. I was no longer impressed by her tears as before. "And let me understand? Did your parents catch you with another girlfriend and kick you out of the house?" I say looking at her sharply. And my hand aggressively grabs her jaw making her look me in the eyes for the first time.  "No! I swear not! After you moved it wasn't enough for them, they still wanted to file a complaint on your behalf, I resisted. In the end I told them the truth. Then the truth came out in high school, and everything went downhill for me too. Dad was angry, I haven't spoken to him since then, he can't even stand to see me, but my mom helped me and I rented an apartment here. I just want to make you forgive me!"

"Forgive you? I forgave a lot but what you did I can't forgive, at least not now..." I say to the girl and at that moment I could read the disappointment in her eyes. Looking at her I remember how some time ago she was my only source of happiness. She made me smile when everything was a pain. But what I felt for her then was just a memory now. I really thought she was my first love but I was lying to myself. What we had was not love. Sexual attraction for sure, we discovered each other in ways unimaginable but as any experience begins it must end. "I understand you, believe me when I say that I would do anything for you, whatever you need!" the girl tells me in a soft voice and her words could make my wheels work. After all, she owed me. He had to do something for me. "What if I told you that you could actually do something for me?" I say this time in a deep, quiet voice. Her eyes were shining with anticipation, she was willing to help me. "What do I have to do?" she asks and I look around to see if anyone was around and could hear us. "It seems that somehow you already met Kally..." I say and she nods affirmatively "I met her a few days ago when I was at the mall..." she tells me and I smile remembering that there is the first place in that I saw the girl for the first time. "Surprisingly, you sow more than you think and she likes to play games, games that you know too well..." I say and the girl smiles mischievously "It's my turn to put my cards on the table, and my cards are you, I want to explodes with jealousy when he looks at us, I want him to feel what I felt too." I say again, the blonde laughs. "Honestly, even in the past if you had told me that someone refused you, I would have been surprised, but now when you look like that? Don't get me wrong you always looked good but now with all these muscles and..." she wanted to complete as her hand went to my stomach and I grabbed her hand stopping her. "I'm going to miss that belly, it was comfortable, but I bet there's something else properly sculpted under that shirt now!" I laugh and exhale unsurprised, even now she couldn't help but flirt with me. "What are you doing now flirting with me?" I ask her with a serious expression and she swallows hard and straightens her posture. "No! I was just saying that too..."

"Do you accept?" I ask the blonde and she nods affirmatively. "But you'll have to be careful, this girl is not like the ones where we come from, she has no mercy and will play you all wrong if you let her." I say but she already understood everything I wanted to say.

I let the girl go back to her class and I make my way to the basketball court. Today were the pre-selections and I really want a place in this team. I played with the team before when I was skipping school and they told me that I would be an honorable teammate. On the way to the field I passed the cheerleaders who shamelessly measured me from head to toe and others greeted me with a smile on their face. I've always wondered why Kally isn't a cheerleader? It would have been just like in the movies the queen bee making fun of other people...