''Jolene...i'm sure it doesn't matter hearing this from me now, but I didn't mean any of those things. I just said it because I wanted to fit in. It was probably the stupidest thing I've ever said. I'm sorry Jo. I'm so sorry."I froze.
Words wanted to come out of my mouth but nothing was happening. Not that I even knew what to say.
I think i've had enough for today. I'll deal with this tomorrow. I decided to not say anything, especially in this state of mind. I'm still pretty wasted to be fair.
As I was falling asleep it felt like something warm had grazed my cheek for just a moment. Before I could think more into it, sleep had entirely consumed my body.
"I wish I didn't even win custody. Fuck, i didnt "win" custody. I got stuck with you because your mom cheated. I got screwed over by her twice. That bitch screwed me over by screwing another guy and she screwed me over again by dumping me with you."
I looked up at my father holding a nearly empty bottle of tequila in his hands.
I've had it.
"Maybe if you weren't such a horrible husband she wouldn't have cheated."
I could see the anger on his face.
The vein in his forehead was practically popping out of his head and smacking me itself.Before I could even think, I saw the bottle coming for my head.
My body jolted up in a panic.
My heart was pounding in my chest.
I looked down at my hands as they were shaking.I hadn't even noticed until now that Jackson had been woken up by my sudden outburst.
I couldn't hear his voice over the sound of my heartbeat pounding in my ears.Suddenly I felt warm arms hugging me tightly.
It felt nice.
It was slowly calming me down as I began melting into it.
The sound of my heartbeat faded and I could now hear Jackson speaking." I read somewhere that hugging someone tight helps relieve the symptoms of a panic attack. I guess the pressure is supposed to help slow down someone's heart rate and relieve anxiety. Um.. Is it working? Or do I just look really stupid right now?"
I chuckled. "Yeah, I feel better. Thank you." I said with a light smile.
I pressed my hand to my scar for a moment, recalling the memory I had just re-lived in my dream.
When I set my arm down, I took a look at my apple watch.
The time read 10:30.
"Holy Fuck! I have to be at a class at 11:00! I have to get back to my dorm to get my stuff!"
I quickly got up and started looking for my clothes.
"Jackson, where are my clothes?"
" I'm sorry, I didn't know you had a class this morning... I threw them in the washing machine last night, but I fell asleep before I could put them in the dryer...Just keep the shirt and sweatpants, I have plenty." he said with a guilty expression.
"Are you sure? I can wash them and bring them back to you."
"No really, it's okay. Like I said, I have plenty of crappy t-shirts and holy sweatpants." he said with a reassuring smile.
I gave him a soft smile, hoping he would view it as a thank you.
I grabbed the rest of my things and started heading out the door. I was about halfway out the door when I remembered what he had told me last night.
The truth about all of those horrible things he had said about me all of those years ago." Hey Jackson.."
He looked at me "what's up?"
I was too nervous to look at him so I faced towards the hallway.
"...I know you probably thought I was sleeping when you were talking about this but um..
I heard what you said.. About how you didn't mean all of those things you said about me that day... I just want you to know that... I forgive you. Can we maybe be friends?I had finally looked over at him to see his reaction.
He looked dumbfounded.
He shook his head for a moment, his stunned expression faded and he began to walk over to me.He stopped in front of me and held out his hand for me to shake.
I shook his hand with a bit of confusion.
"Friends." he said with a smile.I released his hand remembering that I have to be in class in less than 25 minutes now.
"I really have to go, Bye Jack!" I yelled while sprinting out the door.
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RomanceJolene Parker had a troubling childhood to say the least. She didn't have much growing up but she had him. Jackson Walker. Jolene and Jackson were inseparable. As they grew older, life started play its course and one day their friendship suddenly en...