Will It Get better

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London today in the mm>>>>

jayliah

"take you time." the nurse helped me out the bed. my back was killing me. i cant believe i got shot. when that car came around the corner yesterday at the kickback tezz quickly pushed me out the way and started shooting back.

the pain was horrible. when the bullet went through my side, i felt an excruciating burning sentation and felt like i was dien. the most horrifying feeling was the hot blood pouring out of me. when the shooting stopped they got me in a car.

by this time i was feeling numb but the pain was still there. i was laying in tezz arms and that was once again the best feeling. him being there in the time of my pain. i felt something in my heart when i felt his warm tear hit my face. especially remembering him telling me the only girl he cried over was his mom.

im fine now except the big as scar on my side, its so damn ugly and the pain that comes with it. i dont know why i got shot or even why they were shooting in the first place but laying in that hospital had me doing alot of thinking

one thing is people wouldnt be shooting for no reason and the way the boys was shooting back its like they knew what was up. i feel like its something i dont know because when i asked what happened yesterday everybody looked around at eachtoher like they didnt want to say something. i played my cool but on the inside i was mad and kinda still am.

i hate the feeling like i dont know something or im being lied to. i already dont fuck with that lying shit cause i cant do it right. im just gone wait until see how long they gone keep lien about whatever it is and tell me wassup, and until them yes i am saltly.

i got dressed extra slow and walked back out the bathroom handing the nurse my gown. i guess ill just call ms.lauren to pick me up. another nurse walked back into the room, "ms.stone your ride is here." i looked at her confused i didnt even call her yet

i walked out and seen tezz sitting there and mentally rolled my eyes. he got up adn smilied when he seen me. he walked up and hugged me tight causing me to groan from the pain.

"im sorry shorty." he smilied and i followed him out. i slowly got in the car and he did the same. he asked if i was hungry and i told him no i just wanna go home.

"tezz?"

"yeah."

"you wouldnt lie right?" i asked looking at him

he looked at me briefy, " no, wassup."

i nodded, "why was them people shooting at yall?" i asked staring at him

he kept his eyes on the rode avoiding eye contact, " i dont know jayliah we gone figure out." he said and i mentally rolled my eyes and sat back in my seat looking out the window. as if i reallybelieve that but okay

he looked over at me and touched my leg, "you mad at me?"

i simply moved his hand off me and shook my head. he sat back and sighed. we picked up my sister and pulled up to my house. i quickly got out the car avoiding any conversation but instantly regret it feeling sharp pain in my side.

me and jay walked up to the door and walked in. before i could take another step he grabbed my arm, "whats wrong with you."

i shook my head and tried to get out of his graps but he wouldnt budge. "it is something wrong, you haven't said a word since you been out." he said looking at me

" stop pulling my arm that shit hurt, i said aint nothing wrong with me." i said getting mad because he was causing pain

he looked at me then slowly let my arm go, "so you mad at me?" He asked and i looked away