Will It Get better

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Jayliah in the mm>>>>

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Its going over into a whole week since jayliah been gone and aint shit been gone. We been looking and thinking about everywhere she could possibly be but its like that nigga disappeared of the face of the earth.

We did realize that jayliah's car was at the strip club that night we shot at, so im guessing she followed us there or a something. Then whoever told chinco we was gone be there must have set her up or something.

Its pissing me off more that i dont know shit and nothing is making since to me. The fact thats its been a whole week and chinco ass been silent is blowing me right now.

I havnt been doing shit for a whole week and for a whole week i been losing hope and at this point im just ready to give up.

I miss her so much. Its like real pain in my heart and i cant take it. I keep seeing her in my head
Her voice, her smile, her eyes, her hair,  her body, her teasing, her goofy personality, her beautiful face, her laugh, her small hands, her attitudes, her laugh, her body, the ways he walk, the way she dance, the way she talk, the way she look. The way she wiggle her nose when she sleep, the way she wraps her arms around me when she sleep, the way she looks at me, the way she says i love you, the way she calls my name, just her.

I realize that i hadnt did nothing but cause problems in her life. From the time we got in that accident a while back, the time she got shot when we was at the kick back, jaylicia dien and now she going through hell with chinco, all because of me. Maybe im not good for her, maybe im not what she needs in her life.

Im just gone say fuck it. If all ive done was fuck her life up im just going to stay out of it. I hope she is doing good over there but theres just nothing i can do, i give up. Ive just made her life fucked up and i tried i tired but nothing is getting done. So at this point all I can say is fuck it I'm done. I don't know what else to do and I'm done trying. I hope and pray she be okay and whatever happens, happens.

I layed back and kissed the bracelet that me and jayliah got the day we started going out. Hopefully she don't think I stopped loving her because I didn't come save her, there's just nothing left for me to do.

will it get better?

The end