Will It Get better

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Jayliah

Its been 4 days since my mom been gone and ive been not feeling it. Its like im happy she's gone but then again im like how could she leave us. We dont know where she's at and she says she might been gone for a month.

Ive been quiet the pass days at school and when they offer to hang out i just drive home. I still got that key and money she left sitting in the same spot where she left it. I just feel like weight is on my shoulders and im trying not to break down, but its coming to that soon.

I hadnt cried, punched a wall, or screamed but i think i need to do that to let this anger out. I been holding it together. They keep asking me whats wrong, and are you okay, and i always tell them yeah im okay.

I haven't spoken to tezz since the day that girl walked up interrupting our kiss. No reason i just dont wanna talk to him or nobody actually. He even called me, but i hung up the phone. I just don't want to talk and i know london gave him my number unless it was mario.

I have to admit its completely different having friends that treat you like family. For one when i get bruises from my parents and go to school, i dont have to worry about anybody saying anything or questioning me. Now its like they get mad cause im hurt. Then when i go to school upset or quiet, i didnt have to worry about anybody being worried about me. Nobody ever asked me jayliah why you so quiet, are you okay. Now its like they always asking me whats wrong.

i can't even get mad at them because there just showing love but im not used to all that. Every since these past years i learned to deal with it on my own. Im so glad today was friday because im tired of waking up every morning. I just wanna sleep.

Today in school i got my work done and just slept through class.
London said i dont need to be drowning her little sister in my sadness so she gone come get her.

They joke about me being down not knowing the real reason.

I was sitting on the couch staring at the off tv. I had my hair up in a sloppy bun, and my boyshorts on with a tanktop. Jaylicia was sleep in the back. I had to eventually tell jaylicia because our mom hadnt been around so she was asking question. I just simply told her our mom went on a trip she will be back soon as possible.

I turned around cause i heard footsteps. Jaylicia was walking around the corner rubbing her eyes. "Jayliah im sleepy." She said causing me to chuckled

She was just in the bed sleep, then she gone wake up to tell me she sleepy. "Come her baby." I said and picked her up. She laid in my lap with her head rest on my chest. I just rocked her back to sleep.

We sat there for a momment then there was a knock at my door. I sighed long and dramatic. Who the fuck was at my door and why.

I picked jaylicia sleeping body up and sat her on my hip and walked to the door. I looked out the peep hole and opened the door. "Haay bihhh." London said walking in

I turned around and headed back to the couch. "Hay." I said and sat down

"Uhh uhh that dry ass hay." She strunched her face up. I laughed as she come back in and walked over to me.

"Give me her. Got her around yo sappin ass." She said and picked her up

"Aint nobody sapping, But wassup?"

"I came to get her, you thought i was playing."

I laughed, "she dont gotta go with you she fine right were she at."

"Nah she coming with me." London said laying her head down on top of jaylicias

I rolled my eyes and went to the back to pack jaylicia a over night bag. Once i was done i walked back into the living room and London was still standing there.