Will It Get better

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Jayliah today in the mm>>>>>

Jayliah

I hadnt been out my house since the day i got shot. That shit got me paranoid as fuck. I don't know who shot at me or why which was making the feeling worst. Jaylicia even got mad and cried because i told her we couldnt go out for icecream. Im not trynna make her mad but nobody understand what im feeling. But london took her out, so thats good.

I walked in the kitchen and took out some strawberries and a paper plate before pouring sugar on the plate. I walked in our living room and sat down on the couch and watched spongebob.

It was around 1 o'clock and i was still chiling in my leggings and tanktop. My phone rung and i bit into stawberry answering it.

"Hello?"

"Wassup baby what you doing?" I heard Tezz voice said through the phone

"Nothing eatting strawberries, wassup?" I asked ignoring he fact that he called me baby. Me and tezz had a speacial kind of friendship. I knew he liked me and i really like him now. I guess i hadnt made it official yet because im scared. Plus i liked our bond and dont want to risk it by being in a relationship.

"Im coming over." He said and i agreed before disconnecting the call. After about five minutes he was knocking at the door and i opened it before returning back to the couch

"Damn ion get no hug, no hay, no nothing." He said coming in after me

"Nigga i let you in thats good enough." I said turning my attention back to the tv.

He grabbed my tv remote and cut the tv off and i cut him a death glare. Why is he testing my patience.

"Tell me hay baby or some." He demanded

I ignored him looking at the remote. I went to grab it but he quickly moved it. I reached for it again but he streched his arm in the air. I smack my teeth and quickly climbed on his lap forcing his arm down but he would not let that remote go.

I laughed and smack my teeth, "all i ask is for you to speak." He smirk

I let out a lond dramtic sigh, "haay bestfriend." I said in a bored tone turning the tv back on. I got comfortable eating my stawberries and sugar.

"So you going with me in like a hour." He said more so telling than asking

"Uh uh im not leaving this house." I said shutting that down and he looked down at me. I had my head laid on his lap.

"Why its important." He said and i shook my head

"Fuck that last time i left this house i got shot, its not bout to happen." I said seriously

He looked at me thinking about what to say, "look jayliah you gone be with me so aint no-"

I cut him off, "just like i was with you when i almost got my life taking away the first time and just like i was with you the day they shot at twin crib." I said and he clenched his jaw

"What you trynna say shorty, its my fault shit been happening?" He asked and i leaned up off his lap and looked at him

"No, what I'm trynna say is im scared to leave the house in fear something will happen thats all." I said softly. I didnt want him thinking i was blaming him for everything that was happening to me.

"Please jayliah, you know how i been talking about moving out. I finally found a place and the lady told me i could see it today and i want your opinion." He pleaded

I let out a long dramatic sigh, "Okay whatever." I said giving in

He smilied big and gave me a hug causing me to lay back. He kissed my face multiple times, "eew get off mee." I whined