Will It Get better

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It has been two week since jayliah got shot. everybody and everything has been different. I haven't heard from mario because he has been ignoring everybody. Things just seem really distant between everyone.

Im off and cant even look at jayliah because i feel so guilty and its eaten at my soul. I know the only reason they kilt jaylicia was because they knew she was jayliah's sister and we have ties with jayliah. I dont even understand why jayliah is a target for them.

I been smoking and getting high trying to erase her laughs, her beautiful smile, her giggles, her jumping on me when i walked in a room, her calling me cat eater, then the vision of her laying dead when i got out the car that day. I loved jaylicia, she was like family and she didnt deserve to die.

I think its time to stop moping around and get these niggas back. I don't give a fuck about nan of them niggas anymore, none of there babies, wife's, mothers or brothers. Time to show them what the pain feels like.

Jayliah locked herself in one of the guess rooms and havnt left since. She came out once to get some clothes and when i tried to talk to her she threathen to slit my throat if i touched her. I didn't see the same sparkle in her eyes, they were dark and cold.

She hasn't eaten in 2 whole weeks, shes eventually gonna starve herself to death. I cant let that happen and i dont want jayliah to give up, i know jaylicia wouldnt either. Ima be here for jayliah every step of the way.

I walked in our room and looked through the dresser. I got the keys and walked back down the hall. I knocked in the door but she didn't answer. i know shes up because its going on 12 and jayliah's a early bird. I knocked again and she didnt answer so i used the key.

When i opened the door her short frame was standing looking out the window as the sun shine through brightly. She had on nothing but boyshorts and a tanktop and was hugging something, "jayliah?"

She didnt budge. she was really scarying me. I walked up and seen she was holding the same doll jaylicia had before she got shot, "she breathe her last breathes im ready to breathe mine." She mummbled

I sat down and brought her into my lap, " i know it hurts jayliah but you cant just give up on life because something like this has happen. You have to stay strong because you know thats what jaylicia would want. I mean think about it, she and her father never met because he died before she was born. well now they can meet eachother and be happy and look over you, your own guardian angles. But you have to stay strong you cant just give up jayliah please were all hurting so i understand how you feel."

She wiped her face, "yeah okay, your right. im just gonna go take a bath." She said standing up

I looked at her skeptical before nodding and letting her go to the bathroom in the room. I heard the water running. I walked back and sat down on the bed.

This is crazy man. I dont even know how they knew she would be at her moms house. I didnt even know she was there, im sure nobody else knew either.

I dont know how jayliah is going to get over this one. Jaylicia was her everything. If you could see the way Jayliah lit up everytime jaylicia speaks to her. Jaylicia just makes her happy like no one else has. Now that jaylicia is gone and im the reason i dont know how this gone play out.

It got really really quiet then i heard coughing and choking. i ran to the door and opened it. Jayliah was in the water with just her bra and boyshorts. I ran beside the tub.

"What happen, what are you doing." I grabbed the towel and made her stand up. I think jayliah tried to drown herself.

I wrapped the towel around her and picked her up bridal style. Tears fell from her eyes and she grabbed my shirt. I held her tight and sat on the bed against the head board. She rest her head on my chest and just cried.