Sound Of The Wind

20

God damn it! I soon open my eyes and let my eyes roam around. All I can see is white, furnitures and others. I even see a vital screen near on my sid- what?! Vital?
Am I dead? God no!

I try to move but still can't. This is hell!

I feel someone hold my hand. It's Liam, he's having a concerned expression.

I don't want to die yet, it's just ugh! The hell.

I didn't notice myself closing my eyes and before I notice it. I was now asleep.

When I open my eyes again. I saw him sleeping beside me in sitting position. He still holding my hand. I feel save and loved by the way he treats me. I really loved him.

I saw someone open the door and it was my mom and ate Zhean. Walking towards me with a worried expression. They stop as soon as they reach the front of me.

"We're going to have a private talk okay? Just rest there and be comfortable."
Sabi ni papa bago lumabas ng ng kuwarto.

Si ate naman ay umupo lang sa sofa at kinuha ang phone niya. I think she's just trying her best to calm herself.

Di ko na din yun inabala pa at nag pahinga nalang sa abot ng makakaya ko. Kaya ayaw ko sa hospital eh, para kaseng mas pinapalala nito yung nararamdaman ko. Imbis ata na ganahan ako magpahinga mukhang I'll be on the stress zone only because sa purong puti na color ng mga gamit sa loob ng kuwarto

Makalipas ang ilang oras ay nagising na si Liam at nagpaalam sakin na babalik daw muna siya sa bahay nila for preparation sa projects nila. Babalik naman daw siya mamayang gabi para bantayan ako.
I opposed to him but he's sincere about it so I didn't stop him. Nag paalam find siya kay ate bago lumabas ng kuwarto.

Nang maka alis si Liam ay mas naging makapal ang tense vibe sa kuwarto kahit na tahimik. Dinagdagan pa ng presence ni papa na para bang papagalitan ako till death. Katakot kase ng demeanor niya.

Kaya ayaw ko pag si papa nagagalit eh. Sermon to death talaga as in. Try mo maging papa ang papa ko ewan ko nalang kung di kapa titino. Sabagay di rin naman ako matino ng sobra kase ma attitude din ako bagay na namana ko din kay papa but he's like a living beast nako!

"I know your not well zhia. We need to talk about something." Naupo ito at tumingin sa orasan bago ilipat ang tingin saken.

Narinig ko ang pagbukas ng pintuan at nakita si mama na may dalang paper bag!
Yes, may pagkain na din sa wakas. Inilapag niya ang dala niya at tumabi kay papa. Naging seryoso din si mama pero talaga kalmado pa din kung tignan.

Titignan ko pa sana si ate Zhean kaso biglang nagsalita si papa gamit ang malalim niyang boses.

"What happened last day?"

Last day? Is he referring yesterday? What day? Ugh! My head hurts fvck!

"Na..nothing happened." Napahawak ako sa ulo ko at napapikit nalang sa sakit.

"Zhia!" Dali dali lumapit saken si mama at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

"What hurts? Is your head hurts?"
Natataranta na tanong ni mama.
"Zeve, let's stop this for a while. Zhia's head need to rest." Inalalayan niya akong maka sandal sa kama bago ulit mauupo.

Tumango nalang si papa at napabuntong hininga. Tumayo ito at naglakad papunta pintuan ngunit huminto siya at nag salita.
When I back, we'll talk about it. For now just rest Zhia. Lumabas siya ng kuwarto at naging seryoso ang hangin na bumabalot sa amin.

May nangyayari ba na hindi ko alam? Tinignan ko si mama at bakas pa din sa mga mata niya ang pag aalala. Si ate naman ay hindi umimik simula kanina pa. I hope everything is alright but base from what I observe not everything is alright now.

Nahiga lang ako magdamag sa kama. Hindi ako matamlay o may sakit. Talagang may oras na sumasakit yung ulo ko at nawawalan ako ng malay. Ilang beses nangyari ito saken dito sa hospital habang nag papahinga ako.

Parang hindi na maganda kung magtatagal pa ito. I really, really want to know what's going on with me. Hindi ko din matanong si mama kase wala siya dito, habang si ate naman ay hindi sinasagot ang tanong ko.
From that, I know something is wrong.

Sumapit ang hapunan at dumating si Liam na may dalang pagkain. He looks tired, kakagaling niya lang ata sa school pero he's not wearing he's uniform.

"Hi love." Ngumiti ito sa aken at lumapit bago ako yakapin. "I missed you, let's go somewhere after you get well okay?" He lean and kiss my forehead.

Kumain muna kaming tatlo ng hapunan at pagkatapos ay umuwi si ate kase wala daw kasama si Zilky sa bahay. Mama is on work ata kaya ganun.

I miss Zilky and others. Panira tong, kung ano man tong nangyayari.

Hindi ako pwede mag phone kase sabi ng doctor it might trigger my problems sa ulo, na pwedeng naka attach sa mga mata ko.

Hindi din ako makapanood ng tv, kahit yun nalang sana kaso strict si Liam he doesn't let me. He doesn't want me to make my state worse kaya sabi niya. I need to follow what's right for the better of myself.

"Liam, come here." Tawag ko sa kaniya na parang bata.

He just smile and walk towards me. He take a seat on the bed and hold my hand. "Is there anything you want me to do my wife?"

I nod and smile. "I..want cuddles." Nahihiyang sambit ko sa kaniya. I'm not used being this clingy with him before.

"My pleasure to embrace you." He chuckles and lean closer before putting his arms around me. He even squeezed me like a plushie.

I-i feel loved, cared and safe with this kind of service. I really love him for the way the he treats me, for loving me too.

"I think this might be a little cheesy but, I- I..I love you Liam." Bigla akong sumabog at tinago ang mukha ko sa kahihiyan.

I feel his grip on me tightened. He start caressing my back slowly and nuzzle on my neck. I can feel his lips on my skin!!!!
"I love you too, my wife." He whisper and kiss my neck slowly but surely with his lips.

I feel hot!!!! Ang init ng mga halik niya sa balat ko! I open my eyes and cares his hair while letting him do that matter. I feel good, very good. I can't feel any stress at all.